“He’s helping me without knowing it,” I explained to a friend. I was talking about a priest I know.
As I’ve mentioned, I’ve got a really horrible problem at this time. I think it may be the worst thing I’ve ever faced in my entire life, which is saying something. This burden (Saturn) is hidden (12th house) from almost everyone I know. It just has to be that way. I’m not sure for how long.
I went to a priest for help. Priests can be counted on, not to gossip. They keep your secrets. They have to.
The priest was incredibly helpful. He gave me good advice. He’s done a few other things in secret, meant to help me. He also told me I could send him a email if I needed to vent. I took advantage of his offer a few times and then…
Then I decided I should not burden him. Yes, I know that priests are there to be burdened, but this priest has a lot to do at this time.
Further, I thought it might help me to not burden him. It would strengthen me, see? If I don’t lean on him, might I get stronger?
I have gotten stronger and I need to get stronger, still. But here’s the deal…
Besides using the priest’s energy by not using his energy, I have written him numerous times. I have written him in great detail but before sending the mail, I ask myself. “Do I really need to put this weight on him?”
Since I started asking, the answer has been, “no”.
I need to be more like this priest. He has to deal with whatever is put on him and he does it. If he can do it, why can’t I?
If you need help with Saturn in the 12th house, or any other Saturn/Neptune exchange, here it is: Staying Together As Things Fall Apart.