I wrote this in June, 2019. I want to update it, because it’s just so intense. I also hope it benefits my fellow Capricorn risings, at the later degrees, because we’re really in for it. Here’s the original post:
Saturn and Pluto in Capricorn are currently conjunct my ascendant in the sign. It’s quite intense. I see that I am under construction (as I decay)!
But so is my family (4th house), my partner(s) (7th house) and my career (10th house). It’s like making manure. You just keep turning the pile. Eventually it’s ready. I don’t enjoy this process but I’m familiar with it and it is interesting.
For one thing, my prodigal daughter returned. She left with Jupiter in Sagittarius, literally told me that she was “traveling”. Twelve years later, she’s back. We talk several times a week. Some conversations are short and maybe even shallow, but this is because the day or the week before, we got into something intense. The pile was stirred and it has to rest.
Anyway, it’s not painful on either side. But this is something we have to reckon with.
For the record, she has Pluto conjunct her ascendant in Scorpio so she’s right in there… even with me, I’d say. My point is, it doesn’t hurt, but the loss is harsh on both sides. We can never get that time back. It used to me my loss but now it’s hers in many ways. This doesn’t help me. No one likes to see their child struggle. Just, no.
My son is also having to reckon with a number of things… with more to come. So I’m standing here at the parent; how did I do? I have to judge this. No one else can. Same with my marriage, to which I am so deeply committed. And this blog! I have to reckon with it as well.
This is my personal, Cardinal Crush and I don’t know how I’m going to come through it. I expect I will, but I don’t know what’s going to be left of me.
I am isolated at this time, unsurprisingly. No one likes to rot in public! I’m losing weight.
Then I wrote this in August, 2019:
To update, September, 2019, I got on the scale today, after a month of avoiding it. I was expecting to see a small gain. Instead I found that I’d lost another five pounds. I haven’t bought any new clothes. At this point, I don’t think I will because I’m pretty sure I’m going to lose more weight… probably rapidly.
I used to be pretty small, and packing a punch. My friend, Ben, compared me to a caper! (Short video about Pluto turning direct.) Small and potent.
Between hormones, Lupus, steroids I had to take over these last years, I had this weight gain. I really thought it was permanent but now I see that I am returning to my natural state.
Do you have a mid to late degree Capricorn rising? How are you faring with this transit?