So with this Pluto business it’s like walking in the dark. You’re fine and then you step and there is no floor there, so you drop. It happens when it happens too… there is a strong sense of being out of control.
For example I was writing a pal yesterday and had the intention to send her some pictures of my daughter. I wrote the mail and went to look for some pictures to send out of the probably 2000 I have.
I thought nothing of it until I clicked into the folder on my external hard drive where I have these old pictures and WHAM. Her face started loading all over the place, all the images familiar as if they were just taken yesterday although they span years and I became instantly overwhelmed.
Taking a deep breath, I tried to stay on task but it did not take me long to realize it was not a good idea. The edge is just too close, see? So I shut the folder with a note to myself… you may not want to open that for awhile. And this is how it is. This is how it is when you navigate in the black, pitch black darkness. You have to be wary and sometimes you’ve just got to take a step back.