Most people I know believe that what goes around comes around where I stay on the fence. I think they’re probably right but I try to base things on my personal experience and I just don’t have enough evidence. I can’t even say that I hope what goes around comes around because I have seen people do such horrible things, it’s scares me to think what they may be facing down the line.
Now recently I learned that someone who did me really down and dirty a number of years ago was hit by devastating bill. It’s $100,000 bill that they MUST pay and I didn’t even bother to process this or think about it for more than a year. But eventually it hit me and I called, Annalisa.
I called her because I knew she would be gleeful over this. She thought the person, “evil” and Annalisa LOVES to see someone get their comeuppance. I mean she LOVES it.
“This is going to make your day,” I said when she picked up. “I know this will make you stupendously happy, guess what happened to this person…”
It did make her day. She said it was the best news ever and when I hung up I wondered how come I didn’t feel the same or similar.
I asked my husband about this and he doesn’t know. I thought about it on my own and can tell you I don’t think it is because I am high-minded or transcendent or some damned thing. It’s more like I am missing a lobe of my brain so I called, Annalisa back today with more questions.
First she affirmed that news like it does in fact feel her with glee. GLEE! In contrast it fills me with nothing. NOTHING. She laid out her reasoning on the topic and it was all sound. I don’t have any reasoning, just this remark: I can’t see how something bad happening to someone affects me or benefits me in any way.
I did say I think it is fine if someone gets what they have coming but it is also fine if they don’t. I can accept either situation and see no use or value in concerning myself with it, regardless.
Let’s say there just happens to be some people out there who are truly bulletproof. Does this matter to me? It does not. I can allow for that in my paradigm because I just don’t think it matters. It is like someone being richer than me or better looking than me. This stuff doesn’t bother me because it’s pointless. If you can get away with murder and I can’t, so what?
This universe can most definitely deliver outrageous punishment, masterfully designed down to the minute detail. I’ve seen it and I have experienced it myself. I have also been given a pass on a number of occasions which I may or may not have deserved but what I have never felt is satisfaction when someone gets what they deserve and I don’t know why.
What are your feelings or experiences around the concept of comeuppance. Is it universal? Wishful thinking? What?