Pluto gets a reputation in astrology as the villain of the solar system. He’s the one that takes everything away, and we all look at upcoming Pluto transits with dread. And this reputation is certainly in some ways well-deserved. But there’s another planet that can do just as much damage, and we really don’t talk about it enough: Neptune.
Now wait, you say. Isn’t Neptune the higher octave of Venus? Isn’t Neptune universal love and spirituality? Sure, there might be some confusion with a Neptune transit, but compared to Pluto he seems downright cuddly. Surely it can’t be that bad, can it?
Oh, it can.
Let me tell you a story.
I have a stellium in Leo that includes the Sun. The Sun also takes a positive aspect from every planet in my chart except Pluto and, you guessed it, Neptune. The Sun is also the final dispositor of my chart. So it’s fair to say that my sense of self is pretty strong. I’ve always had this kind of internal North Star that pointed back to my true self. At least, until Neptune came along.
Neptune in Aquarius strolled up and opposed that Leo and what ensured, to put in lightly, was a decade-long shitshow.
I lost my partner, my vocation, my home, and every external measure of my identity. I entered an abusive relationship that dismantled me piece by piece. My ethics suffered. I went from an ultra-successful golden child to a broken heap lost between the cracks. It was all absolutely my own fault, and I had no idea.
My terrible choices got me there. And what’s worse, I couldn’t see what was happening to me, what I was becoming. That’s one advantage of Pluto – when Pluto walks in the room, you know it. You are very aware of what you’re going through. Neptune isn’t like that. Neptune erodes your perception over time, using a nice soft-focus lens like a dream sequence in a bad soap opera. The fog encases every aspect of life. And it takes so, so long to see clearly.
So long, in fact, that it’s only now, well over a decade since that transit began, that I am able to get any real perspective. Only in the last few years have I been able to come home to myself. I lost all of my twenties and some of my thirties to Neptune, and now I can finally see why.
Neptune calls upon us to serve. It asks that we use our experiences to expand out compassion and serve our fellow man.
Now, a large number of the clients I work with are in abusive or otherwise unhealthy relationships. And I’m able to help them with no judgment, because I’ve been there myself. I have more compassion for people who are in awful situations or making terrible choices, because I’ve learned that it is possible for a good, responsible person to go very, very astray. And it is through this compassion that I’ve been able to build a version of myself that is far better than anything than existed before. That is the true gift of Neptune.
Have you suffered a Neptune wipeout? Have you been able to find a lesson?