I’ve gone through medium-long times without friends before. I don’t like it, but I’ve felt it’s been necessary to withdraw at various times in my life for various reasons.
Usually it’s because I feel I’m on the wrong path. Having a Venus Neptune aspect in my charge, I’m easily influenced. I can lose myself, basically. I wake up one day and realize I am doing things I don’t really want to do. For example, do I really want to be friends with the cat burglar? Probably not.
I’m also the kind of person people put into service. I readily go to work and if I’m not careful, I’ll wind up over-extending myself.
Maintaining relationships takes energy. Sometimes a person needs their energy to get themselves together or to affect a change in their life. Having a packed 8th house, I’m pretty much required to go through some all alchemical process on a routine basis. This is best done in the dark.
The Libra side / 7th house side of me doesn’t like this one bit. I envy people who spend their lives, surrounded by friends. But some people can’t handle that and I’m probably one of them.
Some people don’t realize how they drain other people. Other people do realize, which is another reason to retreat.
I feel this way now. (See Pluto transit 12th tag) I can’t keep up with people on the surface, in the light. I am too heavy to tow. I don’t want to hold them back, so I let go.
Have you ever gone through a long period without any friends? Was it by choice? Did you feel lonely…or did you feel relieved?