Lynn write on Your Experiences Going Into The Full Moon
“I remember quite a while ago a post you did where you said if you want the answer go to the 12th house. Maybe you are getting the answers you need and a lot of the fear is now being transformed into emotional knowledge. Perhaps your awareness is now your companion on the ‘treacherous’ road ahead. I am so sorry it ‘hurts like hell most of the time’. My thoughts are with you.”
Thanks for your comment it Lynn, that sounds pretty accurate. It also allowed me to get a better grip on something hard to grab which is precious to me. And I think I better grok what I can now because as Pluto transits deeper into my 12th house it’s function there is sure to become more and more obscured.
I am motivated to communicate this transit the best I can because when I googled it last year what I found was inordinately not helpful. Basically I am due to contract grotesque communicable diseases like leprosy. While I understand this better now than I did at the time, we need other treatments of this topic available, when people go searching.
Pluto is concerned with the collective and I have noticed the boundaries between me and IT have all disappeared since Pluto went into my 12th. By and large this is a horror. I could actually argue FOR suffering leprosy over the condition I find myself in there is so much pain, past, present and future but I am oddly comfortable with it.
For the astrologers who might be studying, my natal Pluto activated by this transit is well placed and has no hard aspects so this probably has a lot to do with how I can stand in blood and guts up to my knees and and say, “Ok, I get this and further, I know what to do.” But pain? The pain is incredible but it has never been this bearable n my life.
I do think it is 10 years of end game. 10 years of dying to prepare for the rebirth when Pluto crosses my ascendant and I have tremendous calm about it. My impression is that Pluto is far more at him in the 12th than the 11th even though the literature out there does not seem to support this. But think about it.
The death of your friends, wishes, hopes and dreams? To have all that decimated? Now that is some suffering.
But I can see how that would be necessary to get to this point. Pluto through the 11th killed my intellect and ability to detach so with that wiped out, this is really all there is.