Today my sister said she didn’t know why terrible things have happened to us. Why?
I thought this was interesting because I can think of all kinds of reasons why, albeit in my case. I have no idea, “why” in her case and I suggested my ease in finding meaning in my life of horror was due my chart which is “easier” than hers by any measure. She asked me to explain my reasoning so I did and readily. Because I have thought of these things before.
It is an undeniable fact I have had horrible stuff befall me basically from the day I was born but if terrible things are going to happen, I can think of no one better for them to happen to. I explained that for one thing I can handle them, and secondly that I can and will do things about them others could or would not.
Most important of all is my extreme and extremely honed ability to transform nasty energy (or energy of any kind for that matter) into something other people can use. I know if I eat the shit other people will benefit and I mean a lot of people will benefit.
In other words my life may be grueling but it has meaning and this knowledge is a tremendous gift. I never have to ask, “Why me?” I know why me and I have known for as long as I can remember which is roughly 4 years old.
What I have learned between then and now is there will be no relief. There is no “promised land” I am going to get to in this life so I have learned to get my bliss on the sly.