What does Amputation feel like?
This being the last full day of Venus RX I ask the question -
What does it feel like to be Amputated?
I would like to reflect on my own patterns in relationships. And, do better.
This is not a free-for-all - take a poke at soup. This is also not a thread to brag about being the best at cutting people off... not a pissing contest. We all know everyone is the best at ghosting or cutting off to the extreme...
I want to know what it feels like to be the person that is Amputated. The person that really liked or loved someone who just stopped communicating with them.
Wouldn't it be better if we put boundaries in place first to let people know before they cross the line where the line is?
Venus is getting ready to go direct and I would like to do better. I have had some time to think. And, I want to be a better person in friendship and in love. I would like to be the kind of person that doesn't take things so literally that I can't bear to speak to someone who I feel has hurt me ever again. It's clear to me that this is extreme.
I am getting ready to move and I will have to make new friends. I would like to start this new phase out right. I don't want to be the kind of person who cuts people off. I would like to set boundaries clearly, let people know a truth so we don't get to the Amputation stage.
Scorpio is notorious for cutting something or someone off and never looking back. The person or thing is dead to them. We all know this. I also know this isn't right in all situations.
I would like it if I never did that again. I can imagine it is confusing and maybe very painful. I don't want to hurt people. Even if sometimes they have amputation coming. Let the universe deal with them.
Can you help me understand what being the Amputee is so I can make an effort to never do it again?
What I want to know is - 'WHAT DOES THAT FEEL LIKE'?
Empty. It feels like, defeat. You think you're going to die. You're without animation...
But right behind that, I have to say that a person does recover... and they wind up with your knife.
The knife must be dug out of your own back or vital organs but this can be done and after that, it heals over.
I should add, this is my (personal) experience. I have a strong Jupiter + 8th house so others may fare worse (or better).
It's a great question. And the best Scorpios I have know have always given ample warning.
I agree with Elsa that it feels empty, like defeat. But then after digging out the knife and healing over... it can feel like freedom.
Being amputated is so much better than be strung along by someone who is just keeping you in their back pocket.
I'm over it now, but I used to hold a little resentment for people who didn't have the balls to break up with me when they should have.... if that makes sense.
I had some other thoughts...
If you're at fault and provoked the amputation - it's a lifelong regret.
What I wrote above was in regards to some Scorpio cutting you off in some way,
I've had a significant # of Scorpios try to take me (my blog) out. There is initial pain but it's back on them, very quickly.
I guess it comes down to the individual. There motive might be a factor as well.
I have done this many times and people have done to me as much.
It is painful. When i cut off someone i do feel little sadness even if it was a right choice.
When somebody cuts me off i analyze the whole situation for days.
It is important to LEARN from it.
The whole things about amputation would be less painful if people were open and honest (asking way too much right?) and just say "You know what this is done bla bla bla" instead of ghosting.
I have been ghosted at least 3 times since last summer. Twice by the same person.
It just makes you wonder if something is wrong about yourself. Aftermath is really painful in all cases for me.
I would imagine it is like a door closing, not slammed in anger, but with an echoing permanence that hurts as it sinks in. The pain lingers, seeing other people come and go freely while the amputee is no longer recognized or welcome. After a while, it numbs and becomes meaningless, with perhaps only some confusion of not understanding why they were cut off. A person moves on, wounded but maybe wiser, or not. I've come to this same place of not wanting to hurt anyone. I don't want the story of my life to be negative. I think you already know how the amputee feels though because it is a two-way sword. The loss and emptiness is felt deeply because the relationship we wanted was not possible or sustainable. Some of the worst pain I've felt is cutting someone off. It's like someone dying. I grieve over the loss at least as much as the moocher I cut off.