@sophiab I have never heard it said better. Thank you for putting in words what I am feeling. I have had a massive emotional purge and it was much needed. I actually bought a book to read about it. (The Body Keeps The Score)
My back stopped hurting. I have a very small appetite which is normal for me. Water weight release.
I was thinking hard about all this. It has been so heavy. Harsh. And for so long. It was wearing me down. Not because I was doing anything strenuous but like carrying a heavy burden around... a load of concrete on my back.
So tiring and for no reason really. Just heavy energy that we have all carried since... 2008??
I understand exactly what you mean. We are getting a break. I dread when Pluto passes back into Capricorn. I just can't bear to think of it. I know I am here to learn, and I have to go through it, but I am not 20 anymore and that beat me down so low. Heavy and low. Then Mars went into Gemini and hit my natal Mars and I just blew a gasket. Embarrassing... but the pressure... I just blew. Like letting some of the air out of an overfilled balloon.
I was carrying a lot. And just like that I let go. I am sleeping so sound. Eating light. Moving all over the place without pain. Capricorn beats my bones to death. Lower back (spine) right foot left shoulder. No relief. All of it is gone, like magic.
When you try to discuss energy with someone, they look at you like you are getting ready to ride a broom or start a cult... or put a hex on them. Reality is, once you learn about it and how much the transits really have an effect on your life you can at least make sense of what is happening and know there is an end to it. I feel so much better, for now. They say Pluto goes back into Capricorn to make sure you got it... did you understand? Did you learn? Because if not I can bring it right back... this is what it feels like.
I got it. I don't need anymore. I have said this several times here, and I will say it again. When Pluto was at 22 degrees Cap directly conjunct my DSC I was literally trembling. My hands were shaking. It was the most horrible energetic thing I have ever felt. It felt like the earth was shaking everything I have ever held on to out of me. I had no choice but to go through it and I knew it then. I got very quiet.
Right now, even though my parents are dead, and I haven't quite excepted it yet, even though I miss my family, friends and hometown... I am at total peace right now. The crying stopped, the pain stopped, and I needed it to. I don't know if I could have taken much more before I just broke into pieces. I have had some doozy transits. Pluto in Capricorn (7th) with Saturn in Aquarius (which is my 8th house) has been by far the most internally painful of my life. And I have hurt some people when I didn't mean to at all. Now I have to apologize, and I do not expect to be forgiven at all.
I do believe I clear energy for others. I would have never believed such a thing years ago. I used to read what people would write here and think... what in the hell could they be talking about? What a shock to my system to understand it, believe it and be at peace with knowing it is all true.