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This Saturn retrograde goes exactly (I mean exactly) to the point of my Natal descendant then goes direct on the same spot. It's very close now and I've been feeling it for weeks. It's like a pressure cooker as it gets closer and closer.

For too long I have been under the spell of "It's not me, it's them"... oh no, it's definitely me! Saturn is haunting me with everything I do wrong.

This may be the chance of my life to learn my lesson.

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I'm starting to get hints of this Saturn cycle wrapping up and moving on. I think people will be shocked when Saturn leaves Aquarius at the level of distortion in perception we have been existing with. It just got flatter and flatter as we went further in to the transit. The way we are thinking and thinking and feeling right now is very specific to Aquarius, the personal heart based energy has been really flattened, personal/subjective reality is not supported, it's all homogenous collectivity, even totalitarianist in quality. Ptsd, avoidance, detachment, annihilation, coolness. Sometimes I feel like I can't breathe with this energy. 

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I'll leave my typo there, it sums up the ratio of thinking to feeling right now lol! 

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@sophiab Coolness, detachment, it's like people forgot how to me warm, gentle and tho Saturn is in Aqua, I feel like it's more about 'me and only me' than 'we or us'.

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@dori I think Jupiter in Aries amplifies that me vibe too. Maybe it's more that people are in survivalist mode in their heads, definitely head based and not heart based. The energy of the heart is one of abundance, but the dominant collective energy is of lack. Its very hard to resist being pulled in that direction at the moment. I'm grateful for the Libra energies incoming, and then Scorpio and Sag will follow, these are relationship energies.

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@sophiab I think it initially started during the pandemic and now dealing with all of the after effects of everything that's happened these past 2 years; the influx of technological & social movements, being isolated and then reintegrated back into society.

Or at least that's when I really started feeling it and entered my return. The energy is like a vacuum and figuring out how not to get completely funneled in takes inner strength, but the solidness developed is worth it.

A fresh start is what I'm hoping is next.

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I'm currently feeling it too for my Saturn Return. A lot of, "no, it's not them. It's me" as I sift through my past experiences to navigate future ones. So definitely a lot of self awareness, responsibility, learning boundaries and detachment. I've had to detach from a lot which has helped me because I'm a triple Cancer with so many gosh darn feelings haha. Things don't hurt me as much anymore. I've become a bit more objective. The past 2 years has been all about working hard on structure and stability which is still an ongoing process, but everyone around has taken notice of how hard working and responsible I have become and I've made quite the name for myself in certain places. 

I've also become more of an unapologetic homebody and even in the process of losing a friend group of 10+ years due to it and honestly, I don't care? I've been feeling this friendship break up coming for awhile now. We're just not on the same wavelength anymore. I'm much more focused and with everything that has happened and with what I'm going through.. they don't understand. Yet they get upset if I don't want to go out and party or hang out which would lead to partying. I love them and maybe this is just a hiatus that we're taking, but right now is avoidance as they have ex communicated me from the group chat without a word and I'm okay with it. I couldn't breathe and needed a break. Quite frankly, this isn't the only time we've taken a friendship break either. 

So maybe I have developed a bit of detachment and aloofness towards certain situations and maybe I'm being a bit cold too, but when I say it was needed for me to survive because of the pressure.. I'm ready for it to be over though. I'm ready for the pressure to be over. It's all in my 4H too. It hasn't been that fun, but staying inside my shell, reinventing myself (1H Pluto) has been the best course of action for me and I'm thankful for the newfound growth that I have achieved. Learning to let go and let Allah.. I literally said "I give in. Whatever I'm supposed to learn or happen, I'll roll with it." Still not through with my rebirth yet, but I'm remaining open to it and the feeling.

Pressure makes diamonds.

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@Draco you have two years to sort things. Saturn transiting Cardinal houses is generally really productive.

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Thought I'd bump this post up as Saturn is now direct!!!!! I'm quite sensitive to energy, so I'll add some things I've noticed.

Yesterday I went on my usual walk (I'm a Pisces moon and need to walk long distances regularly ..feet!) and I always climb this really steep hill which clears my energy field/chakras really well. It's a tough climb but yesterday it was nearly impossible, it was like climbing in concrete. Also my body felt very tense and uncomfortable the whole time and I couldn't properly relax/tune out, i just wanted to get the walk over with.

This morning, now Saturn is direct, I feel like a weight has been lifted off me, specifically around my heart chakra. It's like a big boulder got rolled back and off and light and air is starting to get in. Starting to have mild sensations of heart based feelings (Leo!) whereas I've noticed how numb that whole area has been during this Aqua transit and particularly the rx. 

I have found this rx period since June 4th very tough. Just been getting on with things and knuckling down like I'm in the military or something. I'm excited to feel my heart stirring again.

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@sophiab now, when you are saying all this, tho I still feel drained and heavy, like some dense fog is living inside of me, I feel actually a bit better today. Yesterday, I was so low, I spend the whole day laying on my couch and watching tv because I couldn't make myself move, except for the groceries and lunch, but anything beyond that, it was so hard to move, I couldn't breathe. Today morning, I did so many things, and felt more energized, and more like myself.

You said you are Pisces moon, why is that connected with long walks? I like to walk and sometimes I work-up at home (it's usually hard cardio exercises, it helps sometimes with repressed emotions and anger), but how is Pisces moon connecetd with walks?

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@dori hi Dori! Yes, yesterday was pretty dense energy. I was very surprised at how hard the hill climb was, because I do it everyday and I've got much better at it. It was nearly impossible. I was very relieved to get home and cosy up.

Pisces as a sign rules the feet, so I think that's why I like walking so much. My feet get restless! I use it as a way of meditating. Also helps connect to my body and spirit, I get messages coming through while I walk and especially when I push it up a hill lol. 

I wonder if it works also with 12th h because I remember you have Mars there (Pisces house), but maybe you have other Pisces energy. I also have Neptune and my North node in Sagittarius so I like roaming about. 

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@sophiab I didn't know that! Walking is the best exercise for the body and mind also, but especially for the heart. Good you like to walk, I don't know many people who enjoy it and find it useful. Smile I do, Mars and Saturn are in the 12th house, conjunction. Smile That's I guess I like also walking but also that strong cardio exercise to bring out all of those things that bother me. Every morning I walk to my work. It helps me to calm down before the new day starts and allows me to go somewhere imaginative before reality starts. Smile Something like your walking. Smile

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@dori When I worked in an office I walked a distance both ends of the working day and it really helped me not bring things home, energy wise. It's a great strategy. I have Mars Saturn in Cancer in 10th and I like to test myself physically, which I guess is the hill climbing tendency! For me, walking is also about being independent and free, cars or other vehicles are great but it also limits you to rely on them. Depends where you live though and the distances involved. I got a bike recently but I still prefer walking!

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@sophiab so you have Mars-Saturn conjunction in Cancer as I have it in Scorpio? Do you tend to test yourself in other areas too or just physically?

 

I love walking, and you are right, there is something in walking that lifts my spirit up, and makes me feel free.

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@dori I would say I test myself emotionally too. I like to explore my emotional capacities/depths because there is so much info/knowledge in/from emotions. I'm curious about what humans are capable of strength/transformation wise regarding emotions, and also how much change can be brought about through inner experience and supporting the soul. Day to day I'm pretty determined and resilient and would put alot of that down to following my souls promptings (it's taking my whole life to learn about that) 

How do you find the same conjunction in Scorpio plays out? 

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@sophiab The same as yours. Smile I am testing myself on any level, especially emotionally, pushing my boundaries, and seeing how resilient I can or could be. I like digging into the dark parts of life and my dark parts to learn better. I have 8th house stellium, I believe that life isn't as simple as many people think or believe it is. We are not here just to live and die, we are here to learn about those hidden places that give you completely different perspectives on life, life after death, and things you can't see with your eyes, but can feel them. And I compete, all the time, but not with anyone, but myself. If you tell me I'm not capable of doing something, I'll put all my strength to prove you are wrong, but after a while, I always realize I'm not doing it to prove others wrong, I'm doing it because I like to prove myself to myself.

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@dori I really like this, it's like another way of testing realities, pushing into what is real, where do the boundaries lie? Opening up hidden doorways and portals, inside and outside. Reminds me of David Lynch films, he has 8th house Sun in Capricorn. He takes what is on the surface of the consensus reality then pushes into the darkest resseses which then illuminate love, the invisible forces that exist in people and all nature, goes to the extremes. Pretty shamanic stuff I always feel!

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