@plutolover squaring my mc/ic axis, moon @27 and then scorpio stellium too . .
screw the positivity in my earlier posts ??
this is some deeeeep bs. ?
wish you all divine grace during these transits ?
This is an inside job. Hang on. I am done with this trash. I have probably cried more during this time than I ever have in my life. Not done with me yet. When that thing was exact conjunct my dsc I literally could feel that energy vibrating in my bones. The energy was so intense. The worst. Pluto retrograde. Added bonus. Uranus conjunct my moon. Talk about picking a person up and throwing your human body into a life you don't recognize. Move whether you want to or not. And, honestly, you make it worse if you hold on to anything either of them are trying to move out of your way.
My advice is to just go for it. You have no choice anyway, so make the best of each day... when its hard do anything that is uplifting. Music, art, read, get sun when you can, go outside and walk... even barefoot in the grass, sing loud, pray, sage the shit out of everything, watch funny movies, talk to people who get you and will help you course correct if you get confused.... pet the dog, hug the dog because animals know more than we do. And DO NOT do anything drastic that would completely destroy your foundation. Going in a lovely member here told be with this combo I was going through to ride it out.... paint, draw, take a music class, learn a new instrument, write and express myself in these ways but do not do anything that would unravel my foundation. And she was right. Also, Elsa reminded me not to sell my soul. That offer is coming, I can feel it. It's on my heels and will be refused and blocked 'again'. Of course, I have no evidence of this yet. But you know what you know.
You cannot change this. It's going to happen. I am still here so far. My parents have both lived through it so far. My family is still adjusting. Things that were moved weren't mine to begin with, so PLUTO took the wheel and moved them, and Uranus moved ME.
My life is unrecognizable.
The universe sent me a person. A person I would have never expected to show up. This person has Moon Pluto and Aquarius with a whole lot of intelligent earth placements that grounded me. She is Pluto and Uranus. I cannot believe I was sent this guide. What a gift. Thank you, Allie. I truly have no idea how she can stand me. She has faithfully communicated with me every single day since 2019. Can you believe it? EVERY DAY.
Aquarians are brilliant. And they help you learn to detach from ridiculous emotions that stagnate you.
((((soup and Allie))))
Pluto and Venus are squaring my 10th house Venus in Aries.
I've been taking control of all financial matters for my husband and me. We are refinancing for the second time since 2019. Over the last four years, we've been combining everything, and working up to a point of being able to save more for retirement. It's a beautiful thing when it works out! Feeling happy with our financial health is important for me Taurus sun, and him Libra sun/Taurus moon.
my father's illness and magnified narcissistic re-emergence in my life because of his illness has sucked out the last bit of hope/joy/smile from my life! Now that he is sick I cannot even raise my voice at him. This is going to be a long winter with a BPD. Can I survive 2022 to see this Pluto leave my 26 degrees cap ASC?
How many more bullets from this karmic cycle can I dodge? If I dodge them will I get a clean slate in 2023?
@vdn Have you considered a link to your father because of having Capricorn rising, so your chart being ruled by Saturn, and this linking to authority/authority figures/the father to some degree. Depends which parent gave you that structure, input, discipline energy (it's not always the father), but the fact you are having a crisis with him while Pluto is on your Asc is interesting. Where is your natal Saturn and what impact does it have in your chart? Are there any transits to your Saturn atm.. I can recall your chart a bit from previous posts.. Perhaps review this for more info on this dad issue.
@sophiab saturn uranus are in 11th as per placidus.. the sun is actually at 23 now and my saturn at 27...
neither of my parents gave me structure/disciple... i structured and disciplined myself coz of my intense desire for luxury which I was not born into (jupiter in taurus although in 4th and recently realised my asteroid thereus also magnifies my attraction to luxury).. i also have always used hard work to forget my painful parents... mother is also narcissistic to some extent....
but actually, crisis with dad is 24/7 and 365 phenomenon since birth with extremely brief episodes of relief which makes me think he definitely has some personality disorder... the only way to be not in crisis with him is to actually not talk to him and in my culture that is not an option.. but pluto conjunct venus on my ACS opposing my sun.. not sure if it has anything to do with his health
@vdn Sounds like your father is a burden to you, perhaps both of them. When parents aren't responsible or can't take responsibility they burden the child who must become the parent. This role lives on in the unconscious affecting the ability to get free as an adult and live truly independently and happily. Parents manipulate the dynamic unconsciously to maintain the state of dependency. There is a lot of guilt involved. I think this Venus transit can be helpful though for breaking some Saturnian burdens/obstacles. Stay strong!
@sophiab Thank you, dear... no longer sure what to expect... he is getting a defibrillator implanted today... maybe heralding his aquarian existence..
I have nowhere else to share my pain and receive any empathy. therefore I am hijacking this thread. my father's procedure was successful. he came out with tears in his eyes. an hour later he had become toxic again and was shouting at me. I am the person who enabled him to get this procedure. not financially (only partial via my insurance) but in practically every other way.
even as my father was coming out of the OT.. my mother chose to keep herself engrossed on the phone with her sister engaged in mundane gossip.
i have no effing clue how much more of these toxic dynamics I can handle and for how much longer.
i have no clue how much longer ... anything