Mercury and Mars are conjunct and part of the large stellium in Aries opposing my natal Mercury Mars conjunction in Libra. Jupiter is involved on both sides so there has been a lot of philosophical debate between my husband and I over these last days. We’re not been fighting which is sort of miraculous given the conditions. Instead it’s been mind-expanding in both directions. One thing that is becoming very defined is how differently we think. In the past this has been irritating at times but we seem to be grasping at least some of what this means now.
I have also been talking to, Annalisa who thinks more like my husband than I do. I’m not talking about their opinions which do differ. I am talking about the way they draw conclusions. They’re fast with this where I am not. Things are rarely definitive to me even when they are definitive. For me, life is like a window that is always open.
I think both styles of thinking are important and valid. I appreciate my husband’s immovable lines of what is right and what is wrong. I like this stuff defined but I no longer think my thinking is flawed because I don’t go straight to a conclusion and I see now, that is I did I would have a very hard time to doing this job.
As an example, say someone did something horrible. My husband would register the horrible thing as horrible. It’s done, you did it, there will be repercussions and he is not going to feel at all sorry for you because this is how people learn. If you did the horrible thing, then obviously you have things to learn so now you learn them and that’s it for him. Case closed.
It impossible to argue his logic there. I do agree with him but I will get right in the problem with the person, right into the place in the story where they find themselves and do everything in my power to help them from their hole.
I see now that this requires a different perspective and I am strung the way I am for a reason and neither set up is better than the other.
You can come to my husband and get a “boot up you ass” as he likes to say. You can get your ass kicked which is effective and appreciated by many. This is evidenced by the soldiers he trained who continue to call him decades after the fact.
On the other hand if you find yourself in a hole, you can also come to me and I am not going to care one whit how you got there. My entire concern will be around helping you out and helping you recover.
Matter of fact I will get on my hands and knees so that you may climb on my back and get out of the hole and not only that, I will do it without hesitation or consideration of any kind as I know I was born to do this.
Years ago I claimed to have “mapped hell”. I’ve been in there so long, I know where there are doors and windows and where there are steps leading out and places where one can fall.
I do think this is a calling and I don’t mind it. I am pretty sure I’ll be down here for the rest of my life but it’s okay because I know where the cracks are as well. I know the places where the sun gets in and I can stand in that light when the opportunity presents and be renewed beyond your wildest imagination, and mine.
How do you see things?