My friend, Ben, is concerned I might pop off and die during or shortly after surgery. I understand why. This is something that happens, sometimes. But I don’t think it will happen to me. It just doesn’t seem to be my problem.
I told him not to worry about this; my heart and guts are fine. That’s what popped into my head. Leo and Virgo are fine. It’s my musculoskeletal system that is truly jacked; almost beyond belief.
As a Capricorn rising, my body is Saturn-ruled. Saturn rules bones, structure, support, integrity. “Integrity” in this case would indicate a structure that is sound. My skeleton is not sound. This seems a good time to lay this out.
I need four major surgeries. I expect them to take place over the next two years, as Pluto crossed my ascendant. This is why no one should waste their energy worrying about one of them. This is a long(ish) road.
- First, I need my hip replacement replaced and the tendon used to lift my leg will be severed. This is because the tendon is (currently) rubbing on the metal cup.
- I need the other hip replaced.
- I need surgery on my cervical spine (spinal cord is impinged and more)
- I also need back surgery; very complex, due to scoliosis and collapse of spine to one side, currently pinching a nerve.
This equals is a lot of pain. But it’s not life threatening at all. I also have an insanely high threshold when it comes to bearing pain. To quantify this claim, I live with all that stuff, plus Lupus and arthritis everywhere. I rely on Naproxen for pain control! Oh! And 2-300 mg of gabapentin.
I think this illustrates the idea that we’re never given more than we can handle. Knowing I can handle a lot, gives me a good feeling.
Point here is that no one needs to worry. I will trek through this stuff, just fine. I am not afraid; in fact I’m in very good spirits, probably because I am “going into the shop”, now. Things will be fixed.
My friend and neighbor, Jilly, is taking my car in for an alignment for me. She’s also going to wait and get new tires put on. It will be a great feeling to have my car, home, safe, structurally sound and ready to use. Same thing with my body.
Do you have a Capricorn body? What’s happening in your life?