Happy Valentine’s Day Or Whatever

Iorek valentineThe Valentine’s Day Leo Moon has me appreciating my own astrology… FOR ONCE. After half a century of battle, I’m appreciating my own good points. I do have Aries Venus and Leo rising, Scorpio Mars and all. If I didn’t have that shitty Moon-Venus square, I wouldn’t be as resilient as I am, and I like that about me. I’m hard to kill.

I bought myself a hot pink (Dixxon) flannel for Valentine’s Day. I have to go pick it up from the post office because I live in the sticks now. I’ll probably grab a cheeseburger on my way home.

This year is the first time (that I remember) really not being bothered about – well, anything, on Valentine’s Day at least. And not in a Leo/Aries blustery way either. I’m old. I’m fat. I’m not conventionally successful, and I don’t wear makeup anymore. I do have good hair tho. Still, I feel fine.

I’m not sure about the whole “You have to love yourself first” thing regarding partners. But I do know, I feel good because I’ve stopped trying to convince other people of my value. As my own mothering influence, if they don’t see all the wonderful things I see in me… well you know the spiel. I always thought I was fine. I’m not sure most people (who suck) actually think about other people very much – outside of what they can do for them.

When you find the people who see you, that’s got to be enough. Maybe they’re not romantic partners. It’s got to be enough. Because that’s all there is outside of yourself. Seeing your own value is way more important. If that’s the whole “loving yourself first” thing, well great. But I’ve always known my value and that hasn’t been the milkshake they’re looking for.

So whatever, happy Valentines Day! I bet you look hot. Because of course you do.

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Happy Valentine’s Day Or Whatever — 18 Comments

  1. Happy Valentine’s Day Satori??great post. I used to have so many flannels, wonder what happened to them?Hot pink?sounds nice?and the cheeseburger. I’ve made myself brownies( from a pack?) , but modified a bit to camouflage their boxiness. Ate 1/4 of it until I felt unwell , then balanced it with hand washing my bedroom floors?. Valentine’s has become bigger here year by year , but this year I’ve encountered more people really embracing the day. I’m endlessly single , and not into changing that, but I’ve been a bit moved by the love people have for their partners now . It’s so sweet and genuine. I feel I’m always going to be displeased with the face I have and the person I am in one way, the dumb things I’ve said and not done, but on the other hand I really have a lot of love to give , it is still real and unaffected, overflowing sometimes.

  2. Terrific piece! Thanks from your many admirers! ‘Hard to kill’ and ‘It’s got to be enough’….fabulous!! To be seen is the greatest gift…

  3. great post!! (I can see why you love Satori Elsa)I’ve always thought B***ks to Valentine’s day … we can create it’s gorgeous sentiment any time we choose with friends/ partners/ anyone! and always a treat when you meet others that love your milk shake … I love these people! it’s usually a two – way milkshake for which I’m very grateful for!! Thank you for brightening my day!

  4. Great post ❤️ By now, everyone should know that “a day” cannot capture pure heartfelt sentiments. Everyday should be Valentine’s, Father’s, Mother’s, Grandparent’s day etc
    Happy Valentine’s Day, I love all of you ??

  5. I’m reading this the day after Vday. It was likely the first one ever that it was just another day for me. And it was a good day. I put on a stream of YouTube music and danced about unpacking ( I just moved to a new to me very very tiny old coastal town ( pop 1100 plus 1…me) I’ve been purposely single with no dating whatsoever for 3 yrs now so used to being solo and content with my own company. I too have leo rising, good hair, am fat and smart, turned 60 in Nov and really letting my inner happy shine through in between doing my naturally deep, sometimes dark and always profound inner healing in the privacy of my loaded 4th house where obsessive self examination happens around transmuting family legacies ( north node in 1st and 4 planets in scorp in 4th. I’m grateful for the 29°56 Venus in libra conj my 0°mercury scorp on that cusp!!!)
    Cheeseburger and a Dixxon flannel sound perfect! I received new cotton sheets by ups from my estranged mother and a text asking if I’d be her Valentine. Yep, she’s still weird (has sent me sexy lingerie before!) They are my only sheets that fit the sofa bed that came with the place and I left a furnished place so I appreciate the sofa bed and the sheets and thanked her while ignoring the incestuous nature that is my glomming mother. I am my own Valentine and every day is a good day to enjoy the ways I am me and as I get older and live further away from my family I can appreciate that I’m no longer throwing out the baby with the bathwater in these deep dives of family dissection and clean up. Every day is now Valentine’s day for me. No big deal. Just living as happy as I can appreciating when I can see the silver lining show up around the dark clouds now and then. Satori, I appreciate your candor. And that you share it with us!

  6. I always worried about my Virgo ascendent opposing my Pisces moon with both squaring my Sagittarius sun. Now I feel like you do about your moon venus. Not only am I hard to kill, I’m hard to drag through the mud as well.

    • LOL!
      More to the point, if someone is gonna try to drag you through the mud? You’ll make damn sure they’re coming with you!
      And I totally dig that in a person 😛

  7. “If I didn’t have that shitty Moon-Venus square, I wouldn’t be as resilient as I am, and I like that about me. I’m hard to kill…This year is the first time (that I remember) really not being bothered about – well, anything, on Valentine’s Day at least. And not in a Leo/Aries blustery way either. I’m old. I’m fat. I’m not conventionally successful, and I don’t wear makeup anymore. I do have good hair tho. Still, I feel fine.”
    HAhahahaha!!!
    O.M.G. I’ve FINALLY found my doppleganger!!! And it only took half a century…
    “Hard to kill.”…ME TOO! HA!
    I am Virgo sun, Leo Rising & Aries Moon w/venus & jupiter in the 1st and Mars in Scorpio (on the cusp of Sag).

    SMDH…sister, EVERYthing you said in the quote above? I’m SO there with you, lol. It took me until my early 40’s (10yrs ago) but, I could give sh** what others think–I’m doing me. I’m awesome and I’m HAPPY. Bump anyone who says otherwise. I also wouldn’t change a thing about me even if I could.
    So, you GO girl! Do your thang!
    Wycked

  8. I like that Henry Rollins quote. Very Aquarian. He just had a birthday, he was born 2.13.61. I always remember because that’s what he named his publishing company. Happy (late) Valentine’s Day! ?

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