Breastfeeding Pisces Moon Mom Feels Agitated and Overwhelmed

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Dearest Elsa,

I was wondering if you had any suggestions for someone with some Piscean stuff in their chart. How the heck do I use this Piscean energy correctly?

I want to work on art (I’m an artist), I want to write (I can write), I want to be a good mother, sister, etc. But I am not sure how to focus any of it, especially since I have a six month old daughter and I exclusively breastfeed. So I am not even sure if my question is about channeling energy, about motivation, about direction, or what – but I feel like something is missing.

I am going day to day, getting by and doing fine, but without goals, and that, of course, bothers me. I want my primary role to be as mother to my daughter, but I also am restless and depressed because I am not meeting any needs on the creative or other fronts. I’m afraid that I will end up like many other mothers who neglect their own goals in lieu of their child’s. Also, I worry that I don’t have the energy to do more than take care of my daughter full-time.

So I am confused (a function of Pisces, too!) and overwhelmed a bit on what to do. In all honesty, these problems existed before my daughter was born, but then I could escape them for months or years at a time by eating, sleeping and otherwise being hedonistic to cover up my feeling of emptiness.

Any suggestions to a creatively blocked mom?

Yours Truly,
Motivationally Challenged and Emotionally Overwhelmed

Dear Challenged,

Yes, I have ideas. I suggest you adjust your perspective. Making a baby is an enormous task. My sister (a Pisces) told me once that she thought pregnancy was an 18 month thing, not 9. It takes 9 months to make the baby and another 9 to recover! And if you can embrace this idea, I imagine you will see immediate relief from some of the pressure you are putting on yourself.

Now astrologically, Pluto has just crossed your ascendant and squared your Moon Mars conjunction in Pisces. Pluto going over the ascendant like that is a once every 240 years event, and it appears you know enough astrology to glean this is a major, MAJOR life-changing transit.

This marks the birth of your child, but also the death of the woman you were before you had a baby… and the rebirth of you as a mother. Now doesn’t that sound like a lot? Think you might be busy processing on a very deep level? I do.

And when you are breastfeeding, your baby is FEEDING off you. You are literally donating your energy to feed your child. And this is intensely demanding! So do you think you need to be up and around and making art? Why?

As far as I am concerned, making a child is the ultimate creative act. You just made the greatest thing you will ever make, outside of your next child (if you make one). So it may help to attune yourself to these kinds of concepts, and give yourself a break. And trust that your life and life of your daughter will unfold on time, in a way that is perfect as well as perfectly unstoppable.

Good luck.

 

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Breastfeeding Pisces Moon Mom Feels Agitated and Overwhelmed — 8 Comments

  1. I love the 18 month reference! Maybe our employers should see that and make 9 months off mandatory!!

    🙂 Thanks again for great advice and warmth.

  2. pisces moon-

    you may want to worry a bit less about goals and just make sure you’re doing something, anything, that feeds your spirit. that’s so important! people do sometimes subjugate their own needs to their children, not understanding that ultimately, that’s not helping the kids. kids deserve a happy and healthy mom! and since you say this is an ongoing issue, it becomes even more important.

    fact is, if you take good care of yourself, you have so much more energy to give to others. while your child’s physical demands are high right now, it won’t be that long before they are aren’t. but you’ll still have yourself to live with, you know? don’t lose yourself in the role of being a mom. in the end, your daughter will imitate what you do. think what would you want for her, and do that. because that’s what she will ultimately imitate, you know.

    good luck. 🙂

  3. Hey y’all.

    Thanks Elsa, and thank you who commented. I agree with you all. There are a few angles to look at this from. I think having a baby brings up a lot of fears (especially with Pluto transits going on…) and one of my fears is to lose my creativity, I suppose.

    Another fear is (re: Goddess’ comment) that I’ll pass my insecurity or anxiety onto my child/kids, and of course I don’t want to do that, but I don’t want to put a ton of pressure on myself to be amazing either, so it’s a balancing act.

    xoxo…

  4. I’m very pisces and am prone to some fear as well… I breastfed my last baby for two years and experienced the same crisis in regard to my creativity/future. It took a while but I’m now deeply involved in my new creative life, something I couldn’t have envisioned at the time. It just takes time.

  5. on the fear you mentioned, of passing stuff on…that’s not what i was hoping to convey. your child is breastfeeding, for goodness sakes! it’s way to early to get all parenting paranoia, hon. 🙂 i understand it. when i first had kids, i wanted to be “perfect.” there is no such animal. you do the best you can and you love them and that’s that. my kids are mostly grown and i can tell you they will do what they decide to do.

    i just wanted you to realize that you are best serving your daughter by nurturing yourself. see what i mean? there isn’t some “product” you need to produce for your daughter, although it may be different for yourself, i dunno.

    for your daughter, you love her, but also show her how a strong, fulfilled, balanced woman lives, y’kno? loving her and doing your best is enough.

  6. Thanks Goddess 🙂

    Hehe. Don’t worry. 😉 I didn’t get the sense that you were implying that I should be afraid of everything I do as a parent, although I admit I can get paranoid/anxious (lots of Neptunian/Piscean stuff) and project my fears onto what other people say. That’s definitely something I want to work on.

    I always thought I was really straightforward Since I’m an Aries, you know, with Sag rising…hehe, but then I came to find that even though I do express a lot of things openly and even bluntly, I am still prone to wanting to meld with others (the Piscean part of me) and reject aspects of myself. This is something I am pretty much in the thick of dealing with/changing at the moment.

    Your comments were much appreciated, Goddess, and it sounds like you have all the experience to back it up. One thing I’m grateful for, despite all my fears being so strongly triggered is that I do have a sincere desire (more than ever before) to work on things and really try to feel better about everything in my life.

    XO and a merry week to you all.

    p.s. am I allowed to post my e-mail address? It’s unclehannah@comcast.net, if any have any comments or further insight or have been through a Pluto transit, or who just wanted to converse.

  7. Update!

    I feel more balanced now–it’s 4 months later and even though things aren’t less complicated, I am trying to feel more at peace with where I am. Also, some creative opportunities that I could do while still being a full-time mom came up. I illustrated an astrological calendar for one!

    Check it out:

    Thanks to Elsa and to Molly and everyone who provided support. It’s nice to have this community to come to and comment on.

    Yours,
    Hannah and Pele Rose, the 10 month old double-Sag volcano baby

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