Can you tell me why I drag my feet when it comes to my art career? I have opportunities, yet I seem to almost sabotage my own success as an artist.
You absolutely sabotage yourself, in more than just your art. The tendency to act against your own self is hard-wired, with your Mars in square aspect to your Sun and Neptune. You will have to work very hard to overcome this. This may sound like bad news, but I’m telling you this because it’s your only hope.
See, you will not just all the sudden stop doing this one day. You will have to make a conscious effort to understand your motives and redirect your energy. I would go as far as to say, this will be one of the most pronounced challenges of your life. It’s as if these are the cards you’ve drawn and you need to play them very creatively if you want to advance.
But let’s put that in perspective. Everybody has some kind of horrible problem. Danny Devito wanted to be an actor. Actors are usually quite pretty, aren’t they? Well he’s not. But he WANTED to be an actor, so he over came his hard-wired problem, eh?
Personally, I’m a little lazy. I have a short attention span and I want things to be easy. This is why it took me twenty years to write a book. I had no problem churning out the pieces, but finish it? Too hard! Too boring! But in the end, I wanted it done, so slaved and sobbed all over the keyboard and today I can say, I wrote a book.
So what about you? Do you want to be an artist, or no? If no, keep doing what you’re doing. If yes, then get in there and get dirty.