Amber writes regarding my bitchiness:
“…But after reading for 6 years I do think I have grasped your main personality, hologram or no, and you have the benefit of the doubt, no doubt whatsoever. (and I didn’t need 6 years to come to that conclusion).”
Amber, thanks for being honest. I have no idea why I give so many people fits. I would stop if it were possible. I don’t think it is.
I think what happens with me and people is they eventually retire. Sick of the struggle, they retire into loving or hating me. What I do seems to have little impact on the situation or the ultimate result.
Now there are some people who just plain like me but for those who struggle, I would say the majority wind up loathing me and the longer the struggle the higher the odds it ends up this way.
I have been watching this since I was a teenager! For the people who do overcome their struggle, it is generally a triumph for them and a heart-opening.
It reminds me of one of the stories in my book. There was this old man I knew once, his name was, “Brandy”. I was a teenager and he really had a hell of a time with me. I was thrown into his environment and he was jacked up with the 8th house suck and repel energy. He didn’t want to like me but found he did like me. I guess he was just baffled up until the day he decided to give in and these were his words:
“I like you, Elsa. I don’t know why, I guess it’s because you’re a girl.”
And my answer: “I like you too, Brandy. I know why; it’s because you’re a man.”
Everybody cracked up and after that, we no problems ever again.
I am telling you, the smart ones give in. I don’t care how it sounds. I am not a malicious person and it’s hell spending your life defending a myth… fighting windmills and all.
Do you have awareness of patterns of how people relate to you? Can you see the situation in your chart?