Thoughts on "Path of Least Resistance"?
I'm not a path of least resistance kinda gal (cappy) but I think in my old age, the state of the world, single parenting through complex situations, having survived 2 exact pluto transits to my sun and moon etc etc, I'm quickly becoming one (for my sanity and health). But I'm not sure generally how I feel about this idea.
I have a slew of major decisions ahead of me and I can spin out like I could win awards for spinning out and indecision (libra?) -
Anyway, lately I've been doing this "surrender" thing - not meant to be, didn't work out, there's a reason, go with the flow - wow. Like So. Not. Me. and yet the control, resistance, force thing just is exhausting after doing that for so much of my life.
But I have parts of me that are like - what? you're just going to float around like a feather? What about will? What about waking up one day and not having done the things you wanted? (Though the two are not mutually exclusive, I realize - but just all that to say I have a part of me that really doesn't trust that way of life).
I have a cap stellium and have experienced the same aspects mentioned. I am not inclined to plan push repeat as I have most my life. I have developed a practice of reviewin the many processes happening around me, in which I have no will or volition invovled. What's beating my heart, moving the planets, making the weather? That kind of thing. It's profoundly restful. I also have been looking back through the years and have a hard time really pinpointing how I made my decisions. They generally just appeared in my mind. Even if I went back and forth with possibilities, eventually the the tug of war settled down and one choice revealed itself. I think about the agony I put myself through and it almost funny~ I don't think I could get myself all juiced up and agonize if I tried. I'm trusting the landscape in front of me more and more.
This is something I’d like to work on. I have Capricorn rising, which has been very stressful. I keep getting guided toward the idea of surrender, but it’s really hard for me to practice.
I have a weird thought: Could Pluto in Capricorn be the reason for this? I'm a Libra (10th house) who has lost her ability and desire to plan. It's just gone. Let the wind take me where it will.
Pluto (death) Capricorn (planning, ambition). Death of ambition.
I’ve had an almost lifelong inner conversation with myself about this and a lot of experimentation with both modes. I have a few frames in which I’ve learned to look at it.
Not that I’ve really drawn any conclusions but what I’ve kind of discovered is that it’s like a dance; there’s a time to step forward and a time to step back and it takes sensitivity and mastery to know when to do which.
There’s also the middle path which is of course about balance. And the yin/yang concept which illustrates active and receptive energies working harmoniously.
Theres also this way I’ve started to look at surrender which is not so much completely detaching but aligning my personal will with the greater natural will of life. (Not the will of society necessarily but the natural ebb and flow of life.)
Overall though I’ve seen that if I just kind of relax and don’t force things but continue to keep the fire of my passions lit and act upon inspirations when they occur that life will meet me halfway. I think inspiration is a big part of it too.