Modern Falling In Love Is So Disappointing!
I have been making a point of hugging my friends of late. Really giving them a good bear hug. They melt in my arms, hug me back. I met with one of my closest friends this evening. I wrapped my arms around her and held on. She nearly cried. She said she'd had no physical contact in weeks. I had sensed that. Her light, normally so bright, was like a dimmer switch on low. She perked up after that.
The powers that be don't want us to meet, touch, speak in person. All our communication is channeled through increasing layers of filters - we speak through masks into phones which monitor our movements, type terse messages on platforms which monitor, filter and delete what we're trying to share, sit in our socially-distanced chairs at tables divided by perspex...
My motto for some years has been 'whatever the government wants you to do, do the opposite thing.' Now, more than ever, that holds true. No one, not ever, will keep me from loving my special people. Nor will they stop me from those small acts of kindness which can brighten someone's day. They will not take my humanity from me. I will not allow it.
I mean, yes, but also, the online part is really replacing the drive in. Not the date.
It's just a way to meet people. Most of them will not be a fit. Some of them will be WTF
When people think an online profile tells them anything real, is where the disappointment sets in...
There's a little exercise I do each night as I lie down to go to sleep - maybe you've heard of it? I start off by picturing one-by-one each of my special people. I start with my husband, then my closest friends and family, then all my other friends, acquaintances and neighbours, the people I work with... I picture each one, then send them a beam of love and protection from my heart to theirs. I see us smiling and happy, I visualise them inside an egg-shaped bubble of blue-white light. If I don't fall asleep by then, I move on to imagine my entire community happy and at peace, awash in a sphere of the same blue-white light. Then I move on to my country - again, imagining everyone happy, satisfied, at ease within themselves... then on to the entire planet. I also picture people who've not been very nice, and I try to imagine their innocent, child-essence - I try to understand they may have dep wounds and I forgive their negative actions and send them this soothing blue light as well. Usually I fall asleep by the time I get to my community - this visualisation is wonderful for curing insomnia!
Maybe this doesn't really make a difference to anyone except myself. However, I do note that my friends are mostly doing fine, in spite of everything, as are my remaining family members, acquaintances and neighbours - even my local community seems to be fairly peaceful and happy and exhibiting a really strong community spirit in spite of everything. I shared with my friends that I do this each night, and some of them have told me they also started doing this. My brother does something similar - he prays for me every night. I don't know if it's their good wishes, or what, but I often wake sometimes at night, or in the morning, not just feeling - I swear I can actually see it! - a flickering globe of white light dancing around my head. I wonder, what might happen, if we all did the same thing?