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anonymoushermit
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Curl,

I feel bad because my parents' parents sucked. They were abusive, so my parents were abusive (even physically) too. Yeah, but things went too far over a certain line. I have forgiven them, not because I had to, but because I have genuine sympathy for their emotional scars/wounds! Sometimes people don't know how to deal with their scars and emotional wounds.

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Vesta
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You are so mature. Huge hugs!! 

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Dori
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 Dori
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My karmic connection brought me here 7 years ago. I was so lost. My world fall apart the day he decided to leave and ghosted me with 1000 questions I couldn't ask. It was love at first sight, and tho we moved on, he decided to move on, I had to for my own good and the opportunity to be happy, I can still feel him. I never had an experience like that, and I don't believe I will ever repeat it. Not because I wouldn't like that, I just feel this was once in a lifetime experience, core-shaker. Also, nothing feels the same after him, tho I still can't forgive or forget the way he decided to end our relationship. Today, he is happily married and has a son.  Sometimes we just need to accept, life is life sometimes, and it needs to go on.

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Rapunzelsoldierfish
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@dori My gosh, reading that just gave me this heart sinking feeling that's so tangible, with the way you wrote it and all. What helped you in your healing, if you don't mind me asking?  The synastry has got to be really telling of this connection. I'm sorry to hear about the way it ended and glad to hear that you have moved on despite this being such a life shaking event

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Dori
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@rapunzelsoldierfish I've lost a lot in this life, I mean, a lot of my family died, but the day he left me, it was the worst day of my life. In utter shock, I cried for days and didn't eat for like 4 days, at all. Not because he left me, I could have felt it coming for a while back then, because of the way he did it. It was a great love, really great, our synastry was great, Sun and Venus in 4th house, we were home to each other, like Elsa says, textbook astrology. But to ghost me like that... I just couldn't believe from all the people in my life, that he would be such a coward. I never actually healed. Every action has its consequences. I really did move on, but from time to time, I can feel him, I dream of him. We still have that connection. But, his actions made me, even more, suspicious, and more protective of myself. I don't trust, it's very hard for me to trust. I healed a lot here. This community is very supportive, loving, and wise. Some members helped me to understand it through astrology. He has Venus-Uranus square. Back then, I didn't know what that meant. I found a rebound boyfriend after him, I just had to be with someone completely different, but I shouldn't do that. But eventually, I understood that I can't be bitter and angry all of my life, and I decided maybe 3-4 years after he left, that it was time to forgive him.

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Rapunzelsoldierfish
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@dori (((((dori))))) What an experience you went through... what a complete shock that had to be. I see how a Venus Uranus square would contribute to his behavior which I don't quite have the words to describe. How hard when it's the last thing you would expect to happen in your life. It can be so hard to trust people sometimes. It's almost like we can only count on pets to truly be loyal and a small handful of people, if that! I agree, those are all very good words to describe this community. So many members here just are so on-point with all the right things to say. I'm glad you were able to find healing here!

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Dori
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@rapunzelsoldierfish it really takes time to heal from certain things, but I'm not a person who forgives or forgets easily and wounds stay with me for quite some time. I truly believe that one day, I won't look back at my shoulder anymore when it comes to him. As I recall, I found this blog when I really needed answers and I couldn't get it from him, because he never wanted to return my emails or calls, and I really need to understand for sake of moving on. That's how I came here and stayed ever since. This is wonderful community, lots of otehr experience that can help you and loving and caring shoulder where you can cry on, but also where you recieve a wake up call when needed. Smile

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