Your First Broken Heart
Sorry to hear it. Your stories about them were pretty dedicated-to-the-one-I love. ((Vid)) Broken hearts are never easy. I'll be 73 soon, and because you ask about the first I can still remember it, I was probably 21. A star-crossed love, a lust thing based on wishful thinking and raging hormones. He was already hooked up with another woman, but I was young and very much into the Pluto in Leo 7th House dark-love. I told my mother about it (sort of) ... leaving out the details, she saw my broken-heart and said "There's other fish in the sea." Not very consoling, but enough to remember the exact moment and place in time.
I've never put this bit of memory into writing. Broken hearts are important to acknowledge, if only to let them mend.
This might sound weird, but I realized when looking back that my mother was the first one to break my heart. Any boys or men that subsequently broke my heart were just a reflection of that initial wound.
My little Leo Sun Son got his heart broken BAD when he was like 10 or 11. He loved that little Aries girl more than I’d ever seen a grown man love a grown woman. And of course she was a child and behaved like one, shattering his pure heart. He hardened from that:(
I don't remember exactly which boy broke my heart first - there were so many disappointments when I was in grade school. Then I got smashed much harder when I was in my 20s - I about lost my mind.
I have much clearer memory of the first heart that I broke, because another chance like that did not come around for a very long time. He was unusually serious about love at a very young age. He was my first kiss, but I was not his first kiss. I guess I attracted him with my Venus-Saturn energy, but I had no idea how to drive the bus. It ended up being too much commitment for my 12 year old heart (Sagittarius moon), and I wanted out! I remember spending an entire evening on the phone, while I was sleeping over at a friend's house, as he cried for hours. He and I remained close friends through high school, and I went after him at least a couple more times, and got rejected. Venus in Aries can't quit (how embarrassing.) He was not the one for me, but I think he was the only Taurus moon that I ever hooked up with until my husband.
My current stalker was my first broken heart. I was 16. I was devastated by it. Of course he has been following me around for the last 50 years. I have known him since age 13. 50 years of this horseshit.
It was very painful. It derailed me in high school. It took my confidence. And, my grades were affected and then many years of my life following it.
I feel bad for Vid. I think I remember him being a Taurus and I am sure this transit is hitting him hard. I hope he is able to work through it. Taurus folk are sturdy... we know he will be stronger for it... but it hurts bad. And, they may get back together? Who knows. They are so young. Sending him a hug from my direction. It hurts. And, the only thing that heals it is time.
Many people think that girls are hurt more deeply by heartbreak like this but they would be wrong. I watched both my sons go through it and they were devastated. I mean crushed. It was so painful to watch. They still remember the sting.
I have had many an illness. Surgeries. Disappointments and loss. But a heartbreak is the worst. And, I am an expert in them. In my case, I should have learned more from the first one but doesn't matter if its the first or the 31st... it's devastating.
I was able to take the lessons along but I am still a fool for love and will run face first into it without the memory of the last derailment.
This is an open door into manhood, adulthood and the beginning of really feeling deeply. As deeply as a person can feel and as bad as it hurts it makes us so damn smart and so human.... soulful... like an introduction to the deepest part of ourselves.
I wasn't happy at the time they happened... but I am so grateful for everyone of them... the people and the heartbreak. I learned how to treat others and myself.
I hope he can ride through this and be an even sturdier Taurus fast. He is learning about love. And, through it he is learning about loving himself.
I have two sons... oh... it was so hard to watch them wade through it. But, it made them stronger men and I would say better fathers than they probably would have been otherwise.
He was just a little doodlebug 15 minutes ago.... where in the hell did the time go? Vid is a man. I remember him riding bikes and having dance parties. It goes so fast.
He will be better for all of this but of course he can't know this yet. Bless his heart... he loves... and that is a beautiful thing!!!!!!!!!!!!1
My first heartbreak was when I was 17 after a 2 year relationship with my fella. I was so hurt and angry I burned everything I had to remind me of him. Photos, etc. It felt good to watch the flames.