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Where is everyone? Are you depressed? Who is depressed?
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Sunday, May 3, 2020 - 2:13 pm
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Up until now, gardening during this pandemic was giving me peace.

Today it’s not.

I feel a rift coming between me and other people. I sense there’s a shadow that’s fallen over almost everyone. I hear the speedboats ripping all day across the lake, and I know that’s the sound of people newly freed from quarantine and sick of this shit!!! It’s sunny and gorgeous and I should be happy. I am enjoying it–but I don’t feel at peace.

At least I don’t feel a knot in my chest today. That’s a blessing. 😒

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Tuesday, May 5, 2020 - 12:12 am
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I keep wondering about Allie120 up in Connecticut near the worst of this, I hope she’s okay.  

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Tuesday, May 5, 2020 - 8:45 pm
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I’m usually rarely depressed, like 95%+ of the time I’m not depressed. I also heard that depression is anger turned inwards. I usually leave someone, a relationship, if they make me angry.

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And so you should!  Staying would just make you a hostage. That would be depressing.

Being angry at yourself is not so easily remedied.  Being literally chained 24/7 to someone you resent or can’t forgive — yourself — could result in endless depression if not resolved.

But I think depression is even more about feeling helpless, powerless, trapped, a victim.  Sometimes it’s a matter of perception — a conditioned passive or defeatist attitude, being unaware of real options, or too afraid of failure to try.

In our current world situation, fear, anxiety, and not knowing what to believe or expect, plus strain on finances and families, could push anyone into depression. 

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But I think depression is even more about feeling helpless, powerless, trapped, a victim.

Yes, there are many facets to depression, not just one. It could be those things, and everything in between! bl_paw_gif

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I took a trip with my kids to quarantine in another location. It’s a place I consider one of my homes and I am always so happy to be here. But it’s not the same. I’m not depressed, just not high on life like I usually am here. It’s a place that has not been hard hit by CV – like AT ALL – but it’s been handled as if it were. So that’s a downer.

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I’m a corner of my state that hasn’t been hit much, and is under the same restrictions as the rest of the state with no change in sight. 🙁 too

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I am depressed, but it is not directly related to the quarantine. I am not sure whether it makes it better or worse. Confusion is my epitaph.neptune

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Today I spent awhile sitting in the pool area near my zucchinis and housemate’s plants (hisbicus, lilies, elephant ears) and the weather is cool, but very nice. Nature seems to be the safest place right now. 

This week has been a bit wooly. One day this week I lost my composure for a minute (maybe the stress of all this was making me crack a bit, but the next day was better). This afternoon as I was leaving a client’s home, a brawl between some women started in the parking lot right next to my car. I saw food and drink go flying from their car, and a bit of it landed on my car. I’m not thrilled, the car was just washed!! Apparently one of the women was being forcibly evicted from her apartment. What strange and scary times we live in. I could not wait to leave the city and get home! 

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Saturn is going exact opposite my Mercury for the second time tomorrow. I’ve hit a very low point today. Among other things, I’m dealing with car issues that just won’t let up, and it makes me think of Saturn as a car, going retrograde and backing up over me again after it’s already driven over me once. Worse this time because I’m already lying down injured.

So yeah. Overwhelmed and oppressed mentally. It could of course be worse, and I am learning valuable lessons, but knowing that doesn’t lift the heaviness. I am fighting to stay upright and sane.

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Saturn opposite natal Mercury is a tough one, I know just the feeling you describe. That transit was the source of inspiration for the “Difficult Transit” thread I started, though I didn’t write much about it specifically at the time, as it was just the beginning of a series of difficult Saturn transits. I feel for you…that heaviness wears a person down. 

I just had the thought that today (or soon) might be significant for you in terms of the lunar cycle? Maybe checking out your lunar return chart for the upcoming month will help you gain your bearings? Forgive me if I have that all wrong, though. 

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Wow, you are dead on about my lunar return. It just took place around midnight. Mars has been involved via conjunction to my Moon too, which has been agitating but ultimately helpful. I knew that had happened, but hadn’t thought to look at the chart…I’ll do that now. Thank you!

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God came through for me this morning. One of the issues yesterday was that the dealership told me they couldn’t do a state inspection on my car because they couldn’t establish a connection between my car and the state’s computer network, or something like that. They thought maybe it was because I had an after-market radio, which I’ve had for years and it’s never caused this problem. They wanted to do an electrical diagnosis, which would cost even more money than I’ve already bled on this vehicle that’s 13 years old anyway, and who knows how much that repair would have been. I declined it, thinking I’d try to take it somewhere else today, and said not to worry about the inspection.

Well, when I picked it up this morning, someone else had just made another attempt, which was successful, and I passed inspection. I actually prayed about that last night, figuring that God would have the ability to manipulate electricity if need be (Saturn in Aquarius is in my 9th house). I wanted the next attempt to work wherever I took it, and it did. So I’m feeling a lot better now, and I feel like I “passed” this Saturn transit with a very literal symbolic representation.

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Some of my neighbors are getting loud and crazy AF right now. I’m told they do that every year, but still. People are getting cabin fever and it shows. Today I kept getting honked at while I was waiting to make a left turn. Apparently the driver behind me didn’t give two shits if I had an accident……..LET’S! GO! 

My head hurts. I’m cranky. I wanted so bad to salute people with this: 🖕

Fellow introverts, we had a nice break. Now it’s time to go back into our holes and let the extroverts have their world back. 

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