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Where is everyone? Are you depressed? Who is depressed?
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Monday, April 27, 2020 - 8:24 am
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Neither am I.

I baked. The house smells delicious!

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Monday, April 27, 2020 - 10:25 am
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Tummy full of bowtie pasta with sausage and dried tomatoes from my garden, five years back! 🙂

This is also the last cold morning. Free to plant now and will do so as soon as I catch up on consults.

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Tuesday, April 28, 2020 - 7:39 am
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I’m less depressed than I used to be but I think it’s because I’m a little delusional right now lol

Or maybe not…

I’m giving up a lot of my tendency to try to control my situation. It helps. That said, I still have lines in the sand.

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I’m feeling pretty good at this point, even though my sleep schedule is way off. Working on that, but in the meantime I’ve been taking walks in nice neighborhoods in the middle of the night, listening to music. Soothes the soul.

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You know, it’s funny how quick we as a country (America) went from “safer at home” to “if you’re scared, stay home. It’s time to get back to living our lives”.

I wear a mask all day when I’m working or running errands (those are kept to a minimum). I’m washing my hands a lot. I allowed myself a treat today from McD’s (free lunch for first responders/healthcare workers) but I made sure to throw the food on a plate, wash hands, then nuke it. I spray every item I bring home, as well as my shoes, with disinfectant.

And yet…..I feel like a coward. 😞

For weeks I’ve been careful, because I wanted to protect my clients and their families from getting sick. Now, all I ever read or hear is “reopen everything now!!!” “we need herd immunity” “Protect the vulnerable and let the rest of us get back to living” “if you’re afraid STAY HOME”. 

So I guess that my being hesitant to enter crowds or take the mask off just yet makes me a coward?? That would explain why my housemate was teased for wearing a mask in public, and my sister had a hostile exchange with one of her customers. I get it–people are FUCKING FED UP. But why not give a little grace to those of us who want to hang back for a while? 

Where am I now? Confused. Angry. Kind of defeated. 

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It’s probably not worth much, but for what it is, I really appreciate your actions. I’m doing whatever I can to protect my loved ones, and though we’re no where near each other, your actions give me peace of mind that you’re protecting someone else like me. I don’t know why people feel it’s ok to treat age as a ‘pre-existing’ condition, or that it’s ok because ‘they were sick already.’ If someone has been able to manage their illness for years and years, this virus, and especially other people’s actions, shouldn’t take away their ability and right to continue to do so. Some of my loved ones are old, but incredibly healthy. Others have managed their illnesses for years. I don’t see why that should change. Anyway, just wanted to say thank you from over a thousand miles away.

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Thursday, April 30, 2020 - 6:40 am
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Don’t feel like a coward!

You’re being precautious and responsable.

Over here (France), everyone is super eager to rush out in mobs, but areas that have a high density of Covid will have to maintain strict application of sanitary protocol. Not knowing everything about the virus, and people being careless it wouldn’t take much to reach another wave of sickness.

The people who want to rush back have their reasons of course, but I don’t know if these reasons are worth putting people’s lives in danger.

Don’t let’em get you down!!!🙂

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Thank you both. heart

Yesterday I talked to the nurses at one of the agencies I work for. I had my mask on and asked if I was being overcautious. They assured me that I am not being too careful nor am I crazy. They told me not to listen to those who try to downplay this. I could see by the looks in their eyes that this is not a virus to mess around with. 

If other people want to have their freedom to move around, they can have it. I’m not stopping them. I just ask that they respect MY decision to protect my patients. Freedom cuts both ways. 

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NMC, I am proud of you (not that it’s my place to be proud of anyone, just using the expression, with sincerity) that you are sticking to your guns.

I have witnessed the progress in you as we have moved forward through this pandemic. You have a good head on your shoulders, and you have been using it.

You clearly also have a conscience and a heart that you also listen to.

Keep doing this. Then no matter what happens, you can be at peace (and rightfully proud) that you did your true best, according to YOUR values.

I think of you frequently, out doing what you do, and frequently send a “metta prayer” your way.

Much respect,

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NMC, I look forward to your posts to get an idea of what is going on in GA. I applaud your efforts to protect your clients. You may remember my disabled granddaughter has home health. I gave part of my barn dust masks to my daughter and the aid. I truly appreciate your efforts.

As for KY, our governor wears a mask. May 11th we all wear masks.

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Wednesday, April 29, 2020 - 11:20 pm
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Stuck in a home I despise but can’t do anything about that until I find a job and start saving money.

Depressed? Definitely but that’s because I’m here all the time and I got someone riding my ass about perfection and calling me lazy and stupid. This lockdown we’re enduring is not good for my mental health at all. I can’t go to my neurofeedback appointments because another person residing in the house has health issues that could kill them if they get infected with COVID-19. And lack of socialization outside of this toxic environment is also contributing to my depression.

I wish this virus would disappear. Then maybe people will stop getting sick and dying and lockdowns would ease up.

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I’m afraid viruses don’t disappear.

It’s our mindset towards is that must change. A life lived in fear is a life half lived.

There are many ways to die. You cannot control nor defeat that. You can attempt to manage complications. We do this with driving, food consumption, and more. Hell, heart disease is still the #1 killer in the US.

It seems anxiety riddles your housemate and others.

I have pals with major anxiety and PTSD. This recent event has allowed them to substitute their reasons for engaging in anxiety-like behavior. The virus is not the cause. Their symptoms for this behavior is deeper than that.

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Sorry to hear of your predicament PurpleStar. Perfectly natural, giving the situation, for you to be feeling this way. The shit will pass & things will get better, but of course I don’t know when. 

I have no doubt you have continued to journal. Positive visualisation and self talk can help. I’m working on improving my visualisation technique atm. I ask myself how do I want my life to look and try to create a clear, vivid image, detailing the smallest of things. I then say “what can I do now to manifest that image” & list steps. You probably already do/know this but I thought I’d share just in case.

Totally empathise with the isolation, gosh it’s doing all our heads in. Soon we’ll be free. I’ve been fantasising about where I’m going to go, who I am going to see. Freedom is Everything to us Aquarian sun/moons.

BTW, do you have an early Aquarian moon, making transit Saturn currently conjunct it? This would not be helping your situation.

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I hear you PurpleStar. Today I almost lost it for a minor reason because I have so much pent up anger at the situation. We’ve been locked down for 6 weeks and counting and no sign of let up. I’m angry because there is no end date to this and my children are being affected. We’re just going along, but I can’t stand it.

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Dad decided to cancel our family Zoom today and postpone until next Sunday. Mom declined to join us last week because she was in a funk. I hope she’s not falling into a depression. 🙁

She has not been posting on her regular blog. Instead, she’s posting stuff on her news blog, stuff about COVID-19 they don’t talk about on the mainstream media sites. I suspect she’s learning stuff that’s making her angry! Uranus is hitting her moon and squaring her Aquarius planets one by one, starting with Saturn and Mars. 

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