[Closed] Wacha' Doin' 2022
It has been a while since I wrote here.
Things have been busy at work with a new team.
The boy and I are steady on the personal front, but the ride has not been smooth.
There is a constant sinking feeling with me struggling to keep my head above the water.
He has been working very hard for his career.
And we together have been giving each other as much time, space, and energy as possible for our relationship to grow.
I started using 'i love you' with him but he has been reluctant to tell it back to me every time. He did say it back to me the first time I told him 'i love you'. But he has resisted making it a 'habit'.
We had a couple of arguments over where we are in the relationship.
When I asked him does he not feel the same way as I do, he in essence told me 'he is not there yet'. Of course, he tried to soften the blow by sugar-coating but the final message was, 'he is not there yet'. He also doesn't verbally express his affection to me.
It is going to be 5 months in May.
I was in pain about this but accepted him because I do feel love although he doesn't express it verbally. This might not change. So, I have to choose to continue to be with him despite this.
I have also stopped saying 'I love you' post our arguments.
We have had several other small arguments around how he doesn't share details about the people in his life.
The dynamic of our relationship is very complex. Both of us came into the relationship with years of trauma. Nothing about either of our lives is simple.
I know he is trying. He knows I am trying. That has kept us together.
But, I pray to God that things can become simpler. Or at least do not get even more complex.
Pluto is squaring my Libra sons Sun right now. Try to imagine watching this and not being able to tell him a thing.
He lost his amazing high paying job he went to school for 5 years to learn. And Friday night he challenged someone over a parking space at a Walgreen's and got his ass kicked to the 10th power and his vehicle damaged when he was picked up and thrown into his vehicle.
Makes me sick watching it. But I have tried and tried to talk to him about his superior better than everyone else attitude ... (Gemini rising) talking over everyone. Knows more than anyone and everyone. He would not listen. I literally had to tell him that his daughter (my GD was not better than everyone else or other children) She is the love of my life and amazing but teaching her that shit is a NO!!
Well in the last week he was demolished on every level.
Think this shiz is not real... go into Pluto sq Sun thinking you are God's gift to humanity, and you will soon find out.
I could step in and try to make this easier, but he would not learn a damn thing. And he has been horrible to people for the last 3-4 years. More actually, but worse for the last few. You have to let people journey through this stuff.
We want our kids safe, and we worry, and we are sick when they are not doing well. But when they get out of hand and start acting like they are better than the rest of the world you have to step back and let the universe teach them what they will not hear from you.
Talking to him today, compared to talking to him 6-8 months ago. Not the same person. I stepped back and let it roll. He is completely different. He is becoming who he used to be. A decent, kind, nice and generous person.
See, when you decide to get out of your vehicle like a badass and challenge someone, you need to know how large the other person is first.... (best option because people are nuts today... drive away)
They have to learn. I tried. He didn't listen.
If he were a kid I would be raging with fire and determined to seek justice and probably revenge. But, he is an adult and he should effing know better. So.... he learns on his own this time.
Porch color in shade/sun
Has anyone you don’t like ever copied off of you, and you’re like—yeah, nope, I don’t like that anymore. That’s one of the reasons I keep so much to myself. I don’t know why I always have to deal with this. I have Venus opposite Pluto in Libra… is this the f*<#ing copy-cat signature or something?
they say imitation is the sincerest form of flattery but in my case it doesn’t seem like that… it is a kick in the face-oneupmanship. If there is one thing I would change in my chart it is that damn Pluto opposite Venus aspect.
My toddler son is pushy. I mean this literally, he tries to herd me around the house, where he wants me to go. Sometimes I don't have a clue why he's pushing me around. Sometimes he'll stand on my feet, too, while he's trying to boss me around. He's my 5th child, but I haven't experienced this before, so I tried to figure out what in his chart would create this behavior. I was at a loss, so I searched "pushy astrology" and of course, someone made a list of the pushiest signs. The top two were Scorpio and Taurus. My son is a Scorpio with a Taurus moon. But, I've never heard this about those signs before. What do you think? Do Scorpios and Tauruses have a tendency to be pushy?
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