Random Thoughts Thread 2
Another possible Mercury/Uranus event: Has anyone here seen the "Borat 2" scene where Rudy Guiliani plays a cameo and gets a young woman to go down on him during an interview? In a bedroom? I'm not sure if this was a scripted movie scene that he signed up for, or if he really was set up by Sasha Baron Cohen to get caught being serviced by this young woman! EWW!!
All right, I have anxiety regarding two possible surgeries (if massage therapy doesn't work for my finger, I have to have surgery. For endometriosis and a fistula, surgery is inevitable.).
Most of my symptoms are coming from my finger (including hearing loss, constant pain everywhere in the body, fluid buildup affecting muscle appearance, and vision loss). So hopefully once I get that addressed, I can look for a job (I have to make sure I'm a good fit this time!), then have the money for the other surgery...
I've decided I'm going to indulge in the magic of Halloween. See what kind of mischief people can get up to. There's got to be some treats coming out of the tricks.
No better way to tap into that full moon Uranian energy than by indulging and watching.
According to Google Trends, searches for "can l change my vote" have spiked.
I did not know people actually think this is an option. Whaaaat. 🙄
Speaking of Mercury Retro, the website says I joined 51 years ago! That's technically and chronologically impossible. 🤯
I feel ashamed to discuss my drama when the world is filled with so much suffering right now. But I am selfish and a bit anxious. So, hoping that pouring out my brains here would be therapeutic.
Got the shock of seeing the name of a nasty ex on an email thread today. I am supposed to be in a meeting with him tomorrow. This person was married while we were dating (he said he was divorced), was a serial liar (made up yucky stories of his family's influence or how his estranged wife was in a relationship with her own brother.) I have no idea what relationship crack I was on, for the 4 short months that we were dating. A clue is that it started under the influence of alcohol too, and I have since then, deeply regretted it.
He was a classic narcissistic bully who brought out the worst obsessive tendencies in me. He said he was suicidal, so i called endlessly when I couldn't reach him, worried to death. Turns out, he was having a dinner and later complained to our common friends about 'this crazy, obsessive girl'. He knew about my distaste for public scenes. Yet, broke up with me on the side of a road (I wish I was making this up). The non-relationship did a number on my self esteem, and I was so grateful and relieved to fall in love with my gentle and kind husband 6 months after it was over.
Its been 8 years, and I have grown from an insecure little girl to a woman who has been married and has since, lived a full life, including moving continents. But the anxiety that one email triggered is insane. I knew this moment would come at some point of time in my life. But I wish I was more senior in my career, in a better place relationship wise, thinner, hotter, richer....you know the stupid things the mind conjures up.
I am going to meditate a lot and be as professional as I can be. There is no point in giving ghosts more mileage than they are worth. I hope he follows the same principle.