my plan fell through last minute - still in Neptune Saturn quicksand
ugh I'm feeling so defeated. I just wrote on here asking for advice if I should commit to an apartment while confused amid 6 more months of Neptune Saturn transit.
I was feeling confident in the decision and felt like things were coming together despite this debilitating energy.. then bam, fell through today.
I know I am being redirected - but to nowhere it seems. I am set to leave the country to go back there in 2 wks, no place to go, no plan. ugh
I was feeling good like I was onshore for a moment of clarity, being thrown a freaking bone finally... and feeling like okay, I am gonna try to make the best of these next 6 months, float .. felt like a slap in the face today, like nope, wrong move... but yet I have no idea what else to do.
If it doesn't come back, perhaps you can find a short or long term option on the various house-sitting and caretaker websites. Also check for rooms for rent in a private home and sublets. Just keep your stuff in storage until you find an apartment.
Sorry to hear that you couldn't get the apartment. It's hard when you start to think about 'home' and imagine a place and then the situation suddenly shifts. It happened to me before and I got really really down because I was stuck in a difficult, depressing situation and wanted to get out, I felt hopeless by losing out. What happened in the end was that when an opportunity arose about a month or so later - same location but actually a better apartment, I just leapt so quickly as Warped described and everything happened really easily and positively and in the end was better situation for me. I could be like that because by then I knew what I needed, yes it was painful process. What was important appeared to be fostering the desire that grew in me for something, rather than the material details. Try to stay unattached to specifics and focus on kindling the feeling of wanting something for yourself, a dream, a scenario.... even if that isn't completely clear yet, the feelings that you want to experience are important.