How do you feel right now?
Irritated and kinda fed up.
Got sick of one of my guy friends pointing out which women he'd like to have sex with (and making kind of lude comments in the process) everytime I hung out with him and I flat out told him last night that it wasn't necessary to do that with me around because I'm a straight female and don't share his thoughts about women being hot. I really don't care and I'm glad he thinks that about women, I just don't share those sentiments because I'm straight.
I also had to tell him to not try and set me up with other guys because I really am not interested in dating anyone at this point in my life.
I'm just irritated that I had to repeat myself because he's tried doing it once before.
I don't get why men feel the need to try to set women up with guys and also make assumptions about what I need in my life regarding relationships and romance. I personally think he has the wrong idea about what I want, which is no romance or dating.
I'm feeling rested and slightly wired. Both things at the same tired.
It was a good day. A nice one.
I am beginning to feel vindicated.
Is anyone watching the Seal team 6 news?
I am sure there are people around here who recall my husband's remarks when that happened. He said, if they'd have told him to load on a plane with his entire team, he'd know they were going to be killed and not gotten on it.
I feel sorry for the people who all this is going to hit like a brick. I mean that, sincerely.... to the bone. Because I can actually imagine how bad it will hurt. And for how long.
I was listening to a Dave Mathews song (An another Thing) and it just burst me into tears - not tears but convulsive sobbing. No idea why, but later I thought it is the inner grief for the world and all the pain just this year for so so so many people. I am so sad for all this suffering and for all the impossible problems we are facing. It felt good to cry. It has been ages. It didn’t change anything but I felt so much more human after.
My father's not doing so well right now - seems to have had a mini stroke. He's having a few tests done. He's based in another country (where Covid is pretty bad) and in a city where my sibling lives so he's taken care of and seems to be better.
I'm here in another country feeling partly detached (long history there yet also my progressed Moon is in Aquarius and do I feel it) and partly realistic (he's always had such strong health but he's almost 80, not invincible.)
Don't think I'm having a delayed reaction. Although I think he'll probably live for a good many years more I've also prepared myself for his eventual death, for a long time. Perhaps hence I'm feeling detached.
Sad because I realize I feel so lonely being single and I don't like it. It hurts because people just find me attractive, yet no one finds me someone they'd consider dating. I'm trying to stop crying over it.
It just makes me wonder what's wrong with me.