How do you feel right now?
Oh, that doesn't sound like a good situation for you. I would start looking for a new place to live and go back to having clients you visit. You can always get rid of a client that doesn't work out, but if you're living in their house its so much harder.
You must have the patience of a saint to put up with your new housemate. God bless you. In the end, I think she's destined for the assisted living home.
I feel waves of sadness that come and go. But I am ready.
- slightly bereft (Chadwick Boseman was one of my favourite actors and he's died recently)
- very spaced out (this can happen with my natal neptune and pisces activity but I'm having a 2 degree orb - separation - transit of Neptune to my Sun so it's intensified)
- still on vacation mode (won't last long but that's ok of course)
- raw (uranus transit to Ascendant and the Neptune transit are opening me up and enabling a huge identity crisis that was necessary and long long long due yet it's hard to navigate something like this married, I feel)
- and a little hopeful about some of my dreams
I feel 'full', basically, and it's not going away and Covid-19 life just makes everything more evident to me (I observe other kinds of awakenings happening to some of my friends)
Small talk is definitely not for me these days/months...
(((NotMyCircus))) I'm so sorry it's not working out as you'd hoped. Clearly you're doing the best you can do, and the daughters must be doing the best they can do. It' sounds like an all-around unfortunate situation and I hope that things ease up for you soon!
I think this whole lockdown/virus/rioting has fucked with me. I don’t really trust anyone or anything much. Even people I have known for 20 years. Some of this is, in part, due to an emotional valve I’d let off months prior. Some people saw this. My Virgo stellium fools people sometimes. (Elsa wrote about a Virgo’s double life.)
In addition, I’ve rarely felt “Aquarian”. I’m an Aquarius sun with Uranus making a wide conjunction to my AC. However, I am feeling wicked Aquarian lately. It’s kind of lonely, but that fixedness is super strong and a little scary.
This morning, things got worse. My housemate called me out of my room first thing this morning. The minute I came out she pointed her at me said "YOU DIRTY RAT!!! Now I know you have a mouth on you." She said some other things too. As I left she gave me a hard stare and told me to move out right now or I will throw your things out.
So that's it. I'm done. I have to hurry up and get out of here in the next week or two. At this time she won't speak two words to me. Elsa's advice has been haunting me all day. Get the job. Keep the job. Succeeded at #1, failed at #2. Can't even work my own damn chart properly. I cannot shake the feeling that I have failed!
I am out of sorts. One of her daughters is not eating and has stopped speaking to her altogether. Can't say I blame her.
This full moon in Pisces can suck it. It is getting the middle finger from me. All of you here, thanks for your encouragement. I cannot believe that I am having to move TWICE during a pandemic. No other housemate in my life has talked to me this way either, like I am garbage.