So what should do or not do to activate this energy of mars so to use it?
Your Mars will be best used when it is redirected away from clinging to others and into excavating whatever fear and pain is buried there in your 4 th house with Saturn near the IC
The power of the IC is the power of the interior world and soul. When we own soul - Mars becomes less of a struggle - and the interior world and the exterior world are joined in a reciprocal way.
Before that time - Saturn requires the effort of Mars - and nothing is done by itself.
I think if you look at what Mars is known for, action and going about getting what [fill in the blank] and then you look at the qualities of Capricorn, you get a better picture of how it can be used.
As Don says above, “Saturn requires the effort of Mars”, also realize that your Mars is in Saturn-ruled Capricorn. What are Saturn and Capricorn qualities and traits? Goal-oriented, hard work to achieve that goal. Hard work could mean many things: literally sitting down to do the work, research, reaching out to mentors, teachers, instruction, experience, leveraging what you have to get even one step ahead. Capricorn is very practical, too.
There is lack of self esteem and self confidence,so it's a bit hard to get that mars energy work for me. 😑 😐
Can you think back to a time, perhaps early childhood, when you didn't lack self esteem or self confidence? Can you recall when that changed and why? Perhaps if you can pinpoint the cause you will be able to use your Cap Mars power to override and eradicate it once and for all.
Well,before 15-16 yo,after that age self esteem and confidence starting to be at a low level.
Bossy parents,overcritical and father figure behavior caused me deep traumas,after then i couldn't build esteem and confidecent,just insecurities and fears,no friendships later,no relationships,avoidant elements.
It's just didn't wokred for me from that time and then,whatever i've tried to do in a positive way,i always was going back to that deep negative root of issues.
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Maybe i suffer from the "Good Guy' syndrome and people take advantage of my kindness sometimes.
I'm just struggle emotionally from Childhood years and i couldn't find solutions to help me unstuck and grow up dynamic.
It's never too late to up your game. Look at some of the bizarre things people reinvent themselves into these days. You can be a good person without being a doormat.
If people take advantage of you, start saying "No" when you really don't want to acquiesce. If you've been in counselling you know the importance of setting firm boundaries. Learn to value your solitude rather than feeling and appearing needy. Make a concrete plan, on paper, for the new you -- appearance, voice, gait, interests, goals. Once you've become adept and at home in your new self, the one you want to be and thus really are inside, go out and live as the new you. Get involved in something new (take a course, volunteer work, the gym, a hobby group like hiking, etc.) where no one knows you, with no expectations other than enjoying the activity. Be friendly, casual, let others approach you, go ahead and strike up a conversation. It's all good practice and eventually will become effortless, natural to be the New, Real You!
It's never too late to up your game. Look at some of the bizarre things people reinvent themselves into these days. You can be a good person without being a doormat.
If people take advantage of you, start saying "No" when you really don't want to acquiesce. If you've been in counselling you know the importance of setting firm boundaries. Learn to value your solitude rather than feeling and appearing needy. Make a concrete plan, on paper, for the new you -- appearance, voice, gait, interests, goals. Once you've become adept and at home in your new self, the one you want to be and thus really are inside, go out and live as the new you. Get involved in something new (take a course, volunteer work, the gym, a hobby group like hiking, etc.) where no one knows you, with no expectations other than enjoying the activity. Be friendly, casual, let others approach you, go ahead and strike up a conversation. It's all good practice and eventually will become effortless, natural to be the New, Real You!
I haven't learn to set firm boundaries in my life,always was the good guy that couldn't say No to others and they used my kindess for their own good,without return back anything good.
I have tried several times,courses,hobbies,gym,whatever you may think,but after 1-2 months losing interest and motivation,retiring dissapointed as i see i get no satisfaction back.
I'm casual and friendly,but also i'm extreme shy and insecure and introvert.
Most introverts actually Prefer to enjoy their freedom and autonomy and Value the Solitary Life. I know I do. Like you, I was casual and friendly in social situations like work, church, travel, etc., but I rarely Sought Out any other social situations. I outgrew childhood shyness and insecurity once I realized that what other people think didn't matter unless my grades, or later my earnings, depended on it. And even that I eventually beat by going into sales. I was scared and felt unprepared but I forced myself to wing it because I needed a better income. And most of the time it worked. It was a great feeling! Taking on a new and challenging career would be using Mars energy.
So go for it! Train for a sales job that appeals to you, gather up your courage, work relentlessly, get your own place to live if you haven't already, work to buy a house, invest for retirement, travel, even become a philanthropist eventually. Just do it!
But if you find no enjoyment in or abandon all activities, you may be clinically depressed. Have you ever been diagnosed or treated for that?