I wrote about Uranus squaring Pluto = sudden death. Mercury is in Taurus (rules the neck). I got news about my neck today…I was talked to about it. It’s pretty freaky and it’s pretty freaking bad.
They have been messing with my neck for more than a year now…the one guy would not treat me…then another doctor fried the nerve, whatever. But no one has talked to me, outside of my primary care doc, who doesn’t know much about this stuff.
Bottom line, the orthopedic surgeon can’t help me. He is referring me to a neurosurgeon for a second opinion? To see if there is anything he can do, I guess.
Apparently three vertebrae in my neck have fused together. They don’t move at all. They can’t separate them. There is no transplant they can do or anything of that nature.
I was told in very certain terms, over and over that I will die if I get jerked the wrong way. Under no circumstances should I see a chiropractor for example. He wants me to sleep in a brace. A hard core brace, not one of those soft ones. Maybe be in one all the time, I’m not sure. There is an artery there, waiting to be severed, see? Bam, I’m dead.
I don’t know what I think about this. Live until I die, I guess.
Someone has already asked me if I had a will. I told them I bought a spot in a Columbarium…I could go pay for my cremation. Beyond that…what?
For now, I just click clack on. I feel good. I think well. I guess I’ll see what the neurosurgeon says.
This is on top of the other (personal) problem I’m dealing with, which is worse than this, by far, in my mind.
Although paralysis is also possible. Not fun. But also hasn’t happened yet, so I see no reason to do anything other than continue on. It’s up to God.
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Friday, March 6, 2015
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Oh man, Elsa. That’s rough. I hope you get some answers soon. Or at least find a way to live well despite this going on – which it sounds like you’re already trying to do. Sending you love.
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Sunday, February 7, 2016
“…no reason to do anything other than continue on. It’s up to God.”
Elsa, you are so right – and strong – to keep that thought in mind and heart.
We are all with you!
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Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Wow Elsa, that is harsh. Especially on top of dealing with the other harsher thing. Damn,
I hope it is ok to be a typical Sag here and to see the “bright side” even though it sounds crazy. It is just that I have had a lot of 12th house stuff lately and more to come, so I have spent time to think about mortality. Anyway: we all die, most don’t look forward to it. A quick death is a good death IMO, far better than a lingering, wasting one.
I truly believe that a quick death is a karmic reward, a gift. Less suffering at the end, for those who maybe have suffered enough already?
All that to say, is not to minimize how shocking it must be to have to face it. I send you all good wishes for strength, and hope that maybe there will be an unexpected resurrection some innovative plan of the neurosurgeon (a true occupation, isn’t it?) Anyway
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Thursday, February 20, 2014
I agree with Vajra, a quick death is what I hope for! But not quite yet, for you or me! Actually, if all it took was the Pluto/Uranus square, Pluto has just moved off my ASC to my NN, and Uranus is now one degree past my Sun — but I’m not dead!
Did they call your condition ankylosing spondylitis? I have a friend with that — increasing fusion since childhood, not diagnosed until age 32, now in her 60’s. She was told the same, that a sudden jarring could kill her, but she has survived several car accidents. Immediate MRI or CAT scan afterwards and brace for weeks, but recovery.
There’s a brilliant doctor here in FL with miraculous results for back/neck, who will respond to questions online or phone — or on his Sunday radio show. You can find him at http://www.stagesoflife.net.
You’re always in our prayers — thousands and thousands of prayers will keep you safe!
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Friday, March 6, 2015
Vajra, please know, I understand what you wrote – and I believe your intentions are good – and I strongly disagree with… the words you wrote.
Please know, I believe you wrote from your heart. That’s why I say, “words you wrote”. My experience (I’m going to have my second Saturn return before too long – aka, I’m *old*.) is this: there are certain moments in life when “live or die” is a stutterstep business. Nothing philosophical in it, only rubber meets the road, nuts and bolts, real life in the living. I don’t in ANY way mean to single you out – truly, not one bit even! – for saying what is current parlance. I simply, plainly, want to say to you – in case that gives you pause for consideration – imo, that common platitude is full of… that-which-is-a-valuable-addition-to-gardens, if it’s been allowed to ripen and dry (manure).
You, you wrote from your heart – always a good thing. You’ve taken some unripened manure (my opinion!! Could be wrong!!!) that maybe flew under the radar of your discernment (Mercury). But! Maybe not! Maybe, you and I have very different views – in which case, “peace between us, I hope”.
My view is, anyone alive, I hope we each and all live our lives to the fullest, at every step of the way. Even, when the last steps come, whenever that will be – which.no.one.anywhere. no.way can predict. This I know, because, I’m old, and, I would have noticed, if otherwise.
Peace, wholehearted wish to you.
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Friday, March 6, 2015
For what it’s worth. I can’t play cards for *rude words*. But, I had insight, shortly before someone I loved, died – insight for him. But, for me, too (even though I can only play cards with preachoolers, e.g. Go Fish).
When the moment comes, in which we might die, it’ll be simular to a poker or pinochle game – whatever our hand of cards, we’ll have some say… and unlike a cardgame, deciding to keep playing counts most of all. Likewise, deciding to fold (whyever) will play in our favor, IF we are wholehearted about it, after ripened reflection. This probably makes little sense. My analogy is skewed, by me, and, it’s my odd thoughts. Others’ thoughts, and exoeriences, no doubt differ.
Tuesday, July 21, 2015
Friday, March 6, 2015
As a Catholic, I’m “permitted” to ask anyone already in heaven, that we join our prayers (called communion of saints – we’re supposed to be striving toward saintliness, even those of us who won’t get elected to sainthood, for no-one-cares-why – truly true) with theirs, for the wellbeing of who we’re praying for. Anyone can join that prayer – the Holy Spirit is the only gatekeeper (so, if you were excluded, your prayer was off topic, and the referee was divine agency, period).
Roundabout way of saying, prayer (not meditation, that’s a different action verb, and different, in action) is a real thing to do, which anyone can do, no matter feeling confident or timid – no difference there. No matter years of practice, or first time beginner – zero.
I’m praying for Elsa, off and on, brief moments at a time. That’s how prayer (Catholic way) usually best goes. We *don’t* have to pray at the same instant, to join (multiply) our prayers – only, to include in the prayer, “… along with everyone else also praying for the best possible, for Elsa”. Easy peasy, see?
Disclaimer: I have to specify. I am not a theologian. Nor do I speak for every Catholic, much less the Church I belong to (as an ordinary person, anybody). These ideas are simply mine – I could be wrong, I am often enough – and I do think that God – creator of everyrhing we know also us – aka “the universe” hears All prayers. Hears, loves, understands… loves us, for real, and wishes us – all of us – extreme wellbeing, now, and ultimately (we’re free to put brakes on that, whenever we see fit, for any reason, and, that’s ok). IMO!!
“Did they call your condition ankylosing spondylitis?”
I don’t know. Maybe. There was a lot of words. He showed me with measurements on the x-ray. It was all unexpected because the other doc told me the injury was too high on the neck…he did not want to treat me and be exposed to radiation. In reality it’s the lower vertebrate that are fused. There is no space to speak of.. 1 millimeter in places…it’s trying to fuse.
I don’t know if this is all over my body aka ankylosing spondylitis? It’s possible because when I read about it, it mentions SI joints which were my original problem, a dozen years ago. But it is not my first guess. I think this happened because my father kicked me in the head with a steel-toed boot, hundreds of time. Repetitive injury to the neck.
I am going back to this doc (separate appointment) to check back / hips / legs and onto the neurosurgeon for my neck.
I want to stress that I don’t feel any different. I am always in pain – I ignore it.
I was surprised enough, I left my saint medal in the hospital radiology dept. They found it so I’m going to get that today. I also am unclear when I am getting this collar. I don’t really understand. The first thing he said is to protect my neck when I sleep.
“Developed natural spinal fusions are not inborn, but instead come to being over time, usually due to degeneration and possible injury. Many factors can cause typical spinal bones to fuse naturally, including any and all of the following factors:
Extreme degenerative disc disease may make the intervertebral spacer virtually disappear, providing absolutely no cushion between vertebral bones. This can facilitate natural fusion over time. It must be noted that although this case profile of disc degeneration is severe, the process of disc desiccation is completely normal and universal.
Osteoarthritis can certainly facilitate natural vertebral fusions in the spine. OA is a universal result of disc degeneration and typical spinal aging.”
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Wednesday, July 23, 2014
You don’t want a will, here’s why: a will has to be probated, and will also levy probate TAX on your estate, according to the fair market value of the house. NOT the equity. Get a trust set up. This doesn’t have to be expensive, some banks can serve to set up a trust for as little as $300. https://www.legalzoom.com/personal/estate-planning/living-trust-overview.html?kid=b9a627bd-1670-40f7-b655-0472fb089e4d&utm_source=bing&utm_medium=cpc&utm_term=+trusts_in_+georgia&utm_campaign=EP_|_LT_|_GA&cvokid=b9a627bd-1670-40f7-b655-0472fb089e4d&matchtype=b&cvosrc=ppc.bing.+trusts_in_+georgia&utm_content=77859182610952&cvo_crid=77859182610952&cvo_pid=1245746690528307
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