Opalina said
Married to my first Husb, Got my first management position, so stressed out trying to keep my job while ex going to school and dealing with his abuse.

 How do we scorps end up in abusive situations? My Mom was abusive as well. Born into violence,live in violence.. I am so glad to be free of that for 20 years.  

I watched violence as a child. Was subjected to it as a child and then lived in it for years as an adult. Lots of beatings, slaps, punches. It stopped in the 90’s. I will never tolerate it again under any circumstance.

I stay so far away from it now that small things give me anxiety. My son was ranting about something Sunday morning and within minutes I had to tell him someone was at the door and I would call him right back. I did not call him back. It was Sunday. Please lord just let us rest.

I am to blame for marrying this kind of person. I guess I could say I had nothing to measure a normal person by…there was nothing taught at home that would say….avoid this creep or that nut. Still, I am the one that married the jerk. While it was a horrible time it really made me find a way to stand on my own. I had no other choice but to just do it. And, I am all the stronger for it today. I don’t like that my kids had to witness some of it though.

I see these people with these amazing lives…. sugar cookie childhood memories and beautiful weddings with 500 family members loving each other and I have not one thing in my background that can identify with that. My childhood consisted of watching a lot of addiction and violence. It got to the point ….where we just expected it.