Psychological Trauma, Conscious v. Subconscious
Something that's piqued my interest and wondering if y'all have something similar or theories or what-not.
I was thinking about the mouse Dad killed when I was a kid. Man, that really did give me pain! I was probably six or seven, and it's not like I hadn't been around guts and gore because I'd watch him clean squirrels when he came back from hunting, but mice were pets to me. *smiles* I'd had a bunch of mice and hamsters by this point, so when a field mouse ran under my chair, that's what I thought. "Oooh! Wild pet!"
Nope. Dad picked up the chair and smashed it with a shoe. 🙁 Sad, sad, traumatized SaD that day. 🙁
On the other hand, all the yelling and screaming and getting shot at by my mother?* Nah, nothin' doin'. All in a day's work, man; I ain't traumatized, I'm no wimp! Whatchu talkin' 'bout, Willis? Except, yeah, I really was traumatized and didn't realize it until much, much later. I projected that BIG time, too. *smiles* And though it's conscious now, it was subconscious for nearly as long.
I don't really know where I'm going with this, I just find it interesting... why we process some things as traumatic and others, which should be or are traumatic, we deny.
Any thoughts? Do you have experiences with this kind of thing? Can you think of what this could be, astrologically speaking?
Interesting factoid, I've had both of my parents aim a gun at me. Talk about your Pluto in the 4th! ;P
I handle things when I can handle them. Sometimes it's years.
I act like I'm covered in Teflon and everything slides off, but that isn't the truth. Everything sticks. Going to a meditation class and acupuncture forced me to realize that my body was holding things that I couldn't verbalize, but needed to be rid of.
I understand that, CeeCee. *smiles* I got the same kind of epiphany when I was doing a Louise Hay exercise where you write down what you believe about yourself, with where/when you learned it from. Jesus, the shit I dredged out... O_O
Just realized another ('nother) side to this phenomenon: things that other people think should be traumatizing to you that in fact aren't and the subsequent fallout from that. *nods*
Ohhhhh I will be back to this, But absolutely yes, yes, yes!
"Just realized another ('nother) side to this phenomenon: things that other people think should be traumatizing to you that in fact aren't and the subsequent fallout from that." Yes!
They had to stop the meditation class for me so that I could go outside and walk around until "whatever" was released. Weird.
Yes! I was the same way,too about it. I pushed everything down and you couldn't read me for anything. I can take a lot of shit, ALOT! But it's only the last few years that I realized how much "stuff" I really pushed down down down and away. My moon is in the twelfth so that may be why I could hide it so well, even from myself. But when Saturn put it's ass right on my Pluto, the shit hit the fan. Those are the main things astrologically I can think of right off the top of my head right now.