I'm sorry for your losses, Janie. Pluto is beyond your node. I don't think that's it, however it is transiting, inconjunct your natal Pluto.
I would look at Saturn conjunct your moon, opposing 4th (depression) and Saturn in Pisces for the bewilderment.
Good luck!
I’m also very sorry for your losses. My condolences.
Uranus is squaring your Mars, so please take care of yourself.
chiron is conjunct your natal Chiron. (There is pain there), and Saturn has been squaring your Ascendent.
Your 12 th house is getting hammered by all the cluster of planets.
Did you lose your husband after his own dad passed?
- I just had to come back and say once again- please reach out to a grieving group or see if you can talk to someone. Losing a special pet - is enough to cause tremendous pain. You’ve lost so much. Your husband-😞 I’m definitely saying prayers for you to feel comfort and peace.
Janie, I’m so sorry for your losses and this horrible time for you ❤️