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Chiron in your chart, late Gemini, in 10th does impact your Sag stellium as it stands in opposition, particularly to your Moon which I imagine is quite a vulnerable/sore spot where old emotional wounding remains active. My thoughts on this are that it would be good to examine your early relationship with your mother (Moon) or whoever nurtured you, I mean when you were a baby/infant. Is there something that is undermining you that has connections to that relationship or experience? Chiron in Gemini can relate to the mind, thinking, thoughts, it might make you have insecurities about intellectual ability, retaining information, make you feel something painful in your thinking. On another level, if you have siblings, there may be some tension there. I also thought maybe you might easily feel victimised by the external/outside world, this may be a thought you have based on an old experience, but one you can overcome. You appear very confident in your choice of career as you write, but at the same time something is undermining you, a sense that something is always blocking you which you fear you cannot get through. It may be you can find this in your way of thinking - perhaps through meditation you can spend time observing how your mind works and is it always friendly, supportive? Use your Scorpio energy to poke around in there deeply and keep in mind old experiences relating to your early home experience (4th house) which may still be holding you back from fully taking your mature place in the world (10th h). 

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Yes. You're right.
When I was a child I was very hurt by my mother ... I felt that she was not present in my life. She was busy in her world ... we were not 'friends' talking etc. Now that I'm a mom myself then she seems to be making a correction. Because she helps me a lot and loves the baby very much.
It made me think several times “What mother will I be?” How will my child experience me as a mother? "

With my brothers a not so good relationship simply because we are very different. So we do not have similar interests.

In my career I have always had a barrier of not knowing the English language. In the country where I live, most of the good jobs in high-tech or economics require a very good level of English ... and mine is not good. I get a lot of help with translation. Stuttering ... I have no confidence.
So full of times I refrained from submitting a resume ... I felt less good than others...

The question is how will I be in the future?
What should I do to not let this block me? What can I do to get forward ?
Will I be stuck in the same status all my life?

Of course thank you very much

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@pluto I think if you can explore the relationship with your mother more through this experience of becoming a mother - which it sounds like you have the opportunity now - then you can grow and change your relationship to yourself, which has been impacted by your mother's early treatment of you. We often need to see our mothers as individuals (both good and bad aspects) and accept it all, which is extremely hard because it can make us very sad, but try to understand their own life experience. Because we come from them the bond is intensely strong even if not expressed and we can only see our mothers actions as relating to us. The more you find out about her and about yourself through how you experience your own baby the more reality you will experience. This will help you see yourself more clearly, what your talents are and have more faith in yourself. I cannot say, this will happen at this time, or at some time in the future, only that you are already growing in the right direction because you are asking questions and seeking answers. Stuttering can be a symptom of chiron in Gemini. Try to speak honestly with your mum when time seems right or if you feel it intuitively, you may find you can speak more freely than you thought and it will bring confidence to your voice. The Neptune square from Pisces is allowing an opportunity for healing I think, you are doing it already!

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@sophiab 

Hi,
Thank you again for your time and reference.
Now that I am a mother myself, I definitely understand more and accept parts of how my mother was for me.
But still, wondering how I am perceived in the eyes of my son?
Every child is a different education ... so it is very important for me to understand from our map how it is right for me to approach him ... what to emphasize ... what to let go of ... etc.
The map can give highlights and tips on where to get better and what to work on.

As for stuttering - I do not stutter. In my native language I am very fluent , standing and lecturing in front of an audience ...

Only in English, which is not my native language, do I stutter and have no confidence.
And it blocks me because in many jobs we must know English well.
So because of the apprehension and the checkpoint I don’t even submit a resume.
And that's part of the reason I'm not progressing and staying stuck in casual teen jobs.

So I asked about Chiron mainly in terms of career ...

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Please any thoughts? 

Why I'm stuck In casual jobs of teenagers ..?
Why am I not able to advance in my career?
Why am I not able to earn and a living in a dignified and satisfactory way?

IS it will be like this for all over my life? This is my destiny? 
Or is there something I can do in order to progress and develop?

A lot of thanks. 

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