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Neptune Square Neptune Transit (aka transit of "broken dreams"/aka mid-life crisis)
My experience with this transit
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I’ve been going through this transit since May of 2017. Without boring everyone with the tedious details of my life, I’ll just try to sum up briefly how this transit has manifested in my life during the past 2 years.

Relationships – people I never thought would turn their back on me have (feeling like people I’ve known well have turned out to be someone other than I thought they were), several relationships, including close family and friends, lost to issues over religion/spirituality, meeting potential partners who turned out to be in relationships but were deceptive about this fact until I’d been sucked in, lots of manipulation and deception going on in general in my relationships. A general feeling of being lost at sea and rejected/unable to trust everyone around me.

Work – jobs and opportunities not being what they appeared to be at first glance or never materializing at all, even after being hired and signing paperwork, going on job interviews and thinking I for sure got the job, only to be told the company was going to “go in a different direction”, laid off from several freelance positions that proved to be short term, getting leads that never materialized into sales for my freelance business. A time of complete and total instability/uncertainty around work.

Finances – Ruined credit due to the inability to find and keep steady work. 20+ years of maintaining excellent credit now ruined and I will have to file bankruptcy due to enormous credit card debt incurred. Dead broke and struggling to pay my rent each month.

Faith/Spirituality – went from very spiritual to very nihilistic and atheist. Complete loss of faith.

 

This transit won’t end for me until Feb 2020 and the thought of it all just makes me want to stay in bed until then. This has been the most difficult/hopeless period of my entire life and there seems to be no let up in sight.

Who else has been through this? Did you have similar experiences? Any tips for coping with this  transit?

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I hope things get better for you soon! What house is transiting Neptune in?

I have been through this. My natal Neptune is in Scorpio in the 6th house so the square was from Aquarius in my 9th house. I did a lot of volunteer work during that time. I went to New Orleans several times after Hurricane Katrina. I was ironically there 12 years ago today.

I also volunteered with Habitat for Humanity, helped with a wood ministry where my church would deliver wood to people of low income to heat their homes. Very volunteer oriented through my then church.

I had delusions concerning people and not seeing people clearly. I felt like I was walking around in a separate reality from others. I was also suffering from PTSD but didn’t know it at the time.

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My natal Neptune in Sagittarius is in the 5th house. Neptune in Pisces is transiting my 8th house. I also have a natal square from Neptune to Venus so I’m guessing this plays a part in why my finances are so messed up right now?? I’m not entirely sure.

I’m not feeling very altruistic at the moment. I went through that period in 2015-2016 when Jupiter was in Virgo, lighting up all my Virgo planets.  I also went out and did a lot of volunteer work.

I barely want to leave the house with this Neptune thing because I’m honestly afraid of what I may lose next.

It feels like an actual flood just washing things and people out of my life. Everything feels extremely temporary and there has been no stability in any area of my life since this hit. All I want is stability.

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This whole mid-life line-up of transits and everything involving the outer planets, it is long and drawn out.  Astrologer Erin Sullivan has a nice article about this.  I also had an article published on this about ten years ago.  Looking back on everything, I think what was so disappointing, that 4th Jupiter return, unfortunately, seems that too many who have recently been through years and years of rough transits, we are just too tired and too beaten down to see that the 4th Jupiter return should really be seen as the light at the end of the tunnel………..it is the the Chiron return at around age 50 -51 that we begin to feel alive again.  The grand healing time.

This thing with the financial situation, is there anyway you can set-up a repayment plan for a negotiated rate?  A settlement situation.  And if no, please keep in mind what happened to millions and millions of Americans when we went through the Great Recession of 2008.

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Repayment plan? If I could do so, I would.

I can’t even pay my rent. Homelessness is not an option. Any money I get goes to food and rent. I have absolutely no leftover money to pay any debts.

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This transit happened for me between 2016-2018. I think it peaked in the spring of 2017 as well as late winter of 2018. Neptune in the 12th being squared from the 3rd house. I was so caught up in Saturn transiting the 12th house, then entering the 1st I barely noticed. Pluto was opposing 7th house Mars as well.

All I can tell you is that I absolutely lost confidence in myself and other people—and some of them lost confidence in me!! People betrayed me and ST left and right, and our marriage started to buckle under the strain of the ways we were talked to and treated. ST’s failing health broke my heart as well.

Even now, as I come out the other side—I have no desire whatsoever to pursue old dreams. To be in the public eye in any way, shape or form. And I have a public chart! My confidence in my ability to rebuild my life at this point is wavering. My siblings are excelling—one got the Eagle Award in Boy Scouts, two got the Stars and Stripes Award in American Heritage Girls. Yet another is excelling at getting and staying healthy. GOALS, people.

Meanwhile, I’m 41 and adrift at sea. Once upon a time I lived for achievement and goals. Now I think about writing a book (an old childhood goal of mine) and can muster no energy to write anymore outside of this forum. Who reads books anymore?

I guess if I had advice for this transit? Treat it like a Saturn in 12th house transit and learn to float for awhile.  Once you’re done with this transit you will look back and it will all feel like it was just a dream. 

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Forgive me for asking but what is “ST”?

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ST =  Shiny Taurus

He’s my late husband. I call him that astro-name here because he was a Taurus Sun who was brand conscious and loved bright colors.  (Leo 7th house, Venus in 5th). 

I cringe printing out ST because it sounds like a venereal disease, but it’s easier to type than the whole name. 🙂

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Years back, years back……..when I met my first star mentor, he dropped a few pearls of wisdom that have stuck with me for years.  One of my favorites, and simply because it rings true:     Forty is the old age of youth, and forty is the youth of old age.

Basically this whole mid-life thing is wiping the slate clean, and if your kids are not old enough to be out on their own, at least they should be old enough to pretty much shift for themselves……..MEANING…….you now have time for you.

After I processed the Neptune square Neptune, I’ll tell you what I did  —  I gave notice at work, went home and called the movers for estimates, signed a contract to move household possessions, and moved across country.  I just started all over.  Easy?  Oh hell no.  I have to admit, it was pretty exciting.

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I’m single and I don’t have any children. So yes, this time is for me now. My last living parental figure died in December 2017 so there’s nothing really holding me back, I have no ties that bind me anywhere. I just wish I could enjoy it, instead of struggling through it. The finances are the biggest thing holding me back right now. I’m sure in time they’ll improve, but it’s been such a slough, it’s hard to feel hopeful.

I read the the Neptune square Neptune transit is a time of “false starts and false hopes”. That’s a perfect description of what’s been going on since 2017 for me.

Glad to hear things turned out well for you. I hope to be on the other side of this soon.

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I had that transit around 1997.  It was a partly a good time for me because we just bought a house, but it was the first time I realized the door to my youth was closing and I couldn’t go back.

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There is light at the end of the tunnel!

For me, late ’94 – early’ 95. Employer folded, on/off relationship ended, had several crazy inadequate jobs, juggled mounting debt, lots of stress, very frugal living.

But I’d trained for a new occupation in mid-’94, so by mid-’95 I’d passed my license exam and begun lucrative new career which I would gratefully continue for nearly a decade. Paid off debt, did more school, bought condo, traveled, etc. 

When Neptune squared my Natal Nep it was also squaring my Sun, had just finished transiting conjunct my ASC and North Node and opposing my Uranus. Chaotic but exciting time. 

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I also began training for a new career in August 2017. So far it hasn’t amounted to much in terms of helping me find a job, but I’m going to keep persevering.

I’m glad it turned out well for you.

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When a friend went through a series of losses and struggles, she put her remaining possessions in storage and found a live-in housekeeper job. Having no rent or utilities expenses allowed her to use her wages to pay off her debts and build up a small reserve.

Housekeeper, nanny, elder care, resident manager for a Bed and Breakfast, storage facility, apartment building, boarding kennel, farm or stables, etc. Your skills, experience, and maturity are needed! 

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Sorry, you’re walking through fog. That’s not easy to not be able to see where things are right now! shrug_gif

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