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I was so excited for my birthday because my solar return was suppose to be better than last years

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me this year and I don’t feel it, for my birthday I went to work worrying about my reading with the horary chart (I wish I would have never even messed with) now I’m thinking everyone is against me at work especially my new boss bc of the Feed back I got on Facebook about lies and deception I’m apparently dealing with.. then my tooth hurts so freakin bad I spent the morning crying bc I don’t want this tooth pulled out 😭 it’s in my smile line I don’t want a tooth done there I got it bonded and the cavity they covered is killing me ! (They did warn me of that happening so it’s my fault) my husband got me lotto tickets and a phone case that’s way to big for my phone and no winning tickets lol but that’s okay it’s the thought that counts! I went to the mall couldn’t find anything I like so I started picking stuff finally and I hate everything I got so I have to bring it all back! Sorry for my rant but I have to complain to someone I’m not trying to be ungrateful because I’m very grateful for my family and the life that I do have but can you guys seen when things will start to get better? 

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It seems Neptune may be the problem. Disillusionment. You're extra sensitive right now so be careful who you engage with.  It should be better when the transiting planets in Virgo move into your 1st house.

 

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@elsa I can’t wait until then this is so frustrating, I asked that horary question in a forum and also on Facebook and apparently I have a secret enemy and I can’t help but think it’s my boss but I need the education and job I feel depressed and hopeless now and idk what to do I want to pay for a horary reading but idk who to go too bc the last one was really rude to me bc I was asking questions and I feel like if I get a reading from then it’ll be all doom and gloom 😩😑

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@mirandag You may want to set that aside. It's undermining and not necessarily correct.

You have transits to your 12th and also from Neptune. Faith is a good play. 

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@elsa thank you for saying that you do put my mind at ease when I talk to you and I always try to come reread stuff bc it helps and it’s crazy bc as soon as I get to feel okay again I get another response on an old question somewhere else that gets me reworried i hate when I do this to myself bc I can’t blame anyone but myself

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@mirandag you can also blame people who tell you people are out to get you when you're vulnerable!

Also watch beating yourself up. You're not ungrateful. You've been gaslit.

You don't need to pay for a reading. Just rewind and dismiss the undermining message you were given.

 Good luck!

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@elsa thank you .. I feel hopeless I did do what I shouldn’t have and got the reading and from that horary reading apparently I won’t get any better news for a while especially in this job so I guess I will have to leave it and I mean it is true I haven’t heard from my boss in 3 days now I don’t even know if I’m on the schedule I feel like I’ve worked so hard I thought finally I will be able to be happy somewhere in my career I felt so hopeful and now I feel so depressed and useless I have spent the pst few days crying and confused with my direction in life because nothing is going right for me mentally I feel so low and idk what to do from here 😭

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Yes, if you asked a horary question in a Facebook group, pretty sure you should not worry. I bet 98% of the people in those groups don’t know what the hell they are doing. Even people who are well versed in astrology suck at horary. There are not very many good horary readers. You would have to pay a lot of money for a good one to read your chart, and even then, I’d be wary. 

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@la_sirena I know and I got yelled out from the admin who apparently has done this for over 40 years and they straight up said “you won’t keep this job this isn’t the job for you the stars don’t lie” I called her mean and then she lectured me a full book which added to my hurt feelings I am just trying to find hope somewhere but I can’t see it anymore I have worked so hard and was so ready for my new solar return an that sounds crazy but I was just so ready for new positive beginnings now I feel like it’s all over with not even trying to be negative I just can’t get rid of this feeling

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I agree, don't concern yourself with this while Sun and Venus are transiting your 12th. Also the ruler of your Sun, Mercury and Jupiter -  Mercury - is rx, and will go back into Virgo and your 12th soon. This is more a period for recharging and resting, dreams usually are more intense. It is low energy transit, the end of your astrological  'year'. Obviously you have commitments in the world but remember to rest when you can. My ascendant is late Virgo, so im in the same phase. It's better to go easy, you will find your strength and energy picks up once the Sun crosses your ascendant. 

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@sophiab it’s so hard I feel so depressed I thought I was going in the right direction and I feel rejected now from a place that I felt was it for me I was super excited about it and now I don’t feel that they don’t even give me a chance to prove I know what I’m doing I feel stuck and ghosted my my new boss and idk what I did wrong

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Hi,

im not an astrologer, but I think Elsa is right on Neptune playing tricks and causing disillusion. Further Chiron is at 15 degrees square your Uranus and Neptune. While these planets are in Saturn ruler sign Capricorn that brings delay but also a form of disillusionment. I was taught that the squares bring up internal chaos that needs to be healed or cleared. And while being a Virgo sun you tend to overthink. I don’t know your situation. But i do know from own experience that it’s best to stay true to yourself. 

i get that it’s hard that you are being affected by what others think. Inner peace comes when you aren’t affected or even care what they think of you. Their opinion doesn’t matter , your opinion does matter, that’s why it’s better to stay close your heart. 

I wish you strength and sight! This moment will pass.

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@carmen i can feel the internal chaos I have been so crazy in my feelings since tuesday  the day before my bday I have worked so hard the past couple years through my Saturn return and I feel like I’m getting know where except worse off financially and I’m starting to panic bc my savings just hit an all time low here recently 

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@mirandag I've been feeling very weird from around Tuesday also, and although we share a similar rising (so we are both having 12th h transit of Sun and Venus), I don't have 12th h natal planets like you. What I'm saying is, you have it more intensely....because not only is Neptune opposing the transiting planets, he's opposing your natal stellium too. Based on my week - don't fully believe what is going on in your mind, take it with a big pinch of salt. 12th house and Neptune has that strong feeling of self-undoing..when it happens you don't even realise you are self-undoing, it is like being in weird water where you think youre normal but you are way off base. I advise being as practical as possible, focus on 6th house routine things, boring day to day elements like cooking, cleaning , laundry, etc routine routine...practical earth.. and don't let you mind wander AT ALL. Vis a vis the job, if you want clarity about your schedule, why not just contact them to confirm, rather than imagine what is going on? I hope it gets resolved soon. Keep an eye on Mercury when he goes back into Virgo around the New moon in Libra next weekend.

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@sophiab thank you ! I will try to stay out if my head it is so hard i feel like im on a “poor me” mind set and im not trying to be that person I hate it .. would mercury going back into Virgo be better than it is now?

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@mirandag I understand, I think it's a kind of 'victim' mentality that can come with Pisces/12th energy... I think it's because it's very hard to maintain a strong sense of self, it tends to dissolve the self into the greater cosmic energies, and actually this can sometimes be a strength because you can transcend mundane concerns and have broader fluid perspective, but on a more negative side when dealing with others it can bring vulnerability, confusion and a sense of being not seen or misunderstood, which quickly can become a feeling of being a victim, poor me, etc. Actually I think that's a very real phenomena for Pisces energy, being misunderstood, but it's necessary to live on earth so being assertive of your self and having boundaries is important. I'm a Pisces moon so I haven't figured this out yet!

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@mirandag I'm unsure how it'll be when Mercury returns to Virgo, just to keep an eye on it being in your 12th again and opposite Neptune. The sun will be in Libra by then so that will feel like a big shift, with the equinox - Saturday.

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I learned that if you work hard during the hard transits things seems to settle down. 

In 2011 Saturn was opposing your moon and Saturn transited your 2nd house then. What happened then ? 

you survived that so you will survive this too. 

pluto is almost at the end of your 4th just like mine. I’m also a libra rising. And yes I also struggle financially and am scared. I don’t have any income at the moment and my bf is the breadwinner now. 

but in the past for example when Saturn transited my second house also around 2011 I experienced disasters financially. I still shared a mortgage with my ex, he didn’t pay while he lived in the house and I rented an apartment. I had to pay rent and mortgage. The mortgage company came to me since I was co-owner so I had to pay up. I was so tired and worn out, working my butt off. 

but I remember that out of the blue jobs came up, cleaning jobs but they paid well so that I was able to pay my way. 

eventually I got off the mortgage lease and things  got easier , financially and emotionally. 

try to stay calm, meditations help me a lot and so do the bach drops. Mind you I didn’t believe in those things before. But now i do. 

Feelings are carried by our thoughts. So try to change your thinking. Gradually start thinking about a bit better feeling thought , I know you can’t go from A to Z in a whim. But still , try to find solace in things. So the disturbing thoughts have less room to fill your mind.

you’ll be alright, just hang in there. 

Carmen

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@carmen damn so 2011 I was fired from a job I really enjoyed selling wedding dresses at David’s bridal and going through a break up that wrecked me which caused me to slack at work .. ugh.. I spiraled into depression I hope these things don’t rehappen but you’re right I need to think positive I’m trying hard to get out of this  mental state I knew forsure I could go anywhere bc I know I’m good at my job with mens cuts but going to learn color was a whole new thing for me but I have the license for it so I need not let it go go waste … I may just in the meantime go to supercuts so I’m making something right now thank you I hope things get better I’m trying to find hope and a positive mindset. Thank you 💙

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