Experiences with Neptune Saturn—how long did it take for the effects to wear off after the transit was ending ?
Neptune moves off of my Saturn at the end of Feb 2022. So, it's weird knowing the end is near yet that still feels like a longgg time to still be lost. I told my mom, I can't even fathom knowing what I want again, because that's how thick the fog has been for so long now.
I am back home, trying to make plans/decisions for my next move. I've been doing the travel thing I guess you could say (even though I was already living abroad before the transit, but since the transit, I was uprooted from any one particular place)
It's so incredibly hard trying to make plans and this is such a weird spot to be in, knowing there's 6mo left of this transit, and then trying to imagine/have faith that by next year I will know
-I feel so confused about how I feel, what I want, etc.
-feelings change, plans fade
-the gypsy life is amazing but also gets really old - but wait, no point in settling yet if its gonna fall apart
- and couldn't settle now anyway, because I have no clue what I want so that includes where to go!
Anyone with Neptune Saturn experiences— do you remember how long it was until you started to feel like a normal sane human again that could make life decisions with clarity?
Was the transit end obvious at the time of its end? Could you feel it ahead of time or the opposite — did its effects last a while after?
I've had this transit. It's a slow sobering up. You reenter reality, seamlessly. It's not painful. More like, what was that?
Do you think the transit is hitting you hard because you have so much Mars energy (thinking of your Aries planets, but there is also Scorpio) and the transit is kind of upending that quite direct relationship between desiring something and acting to get it? Aries is so proactive and fast, it's like desire/idea then action, bam. But then this kind of reality twister of a transit comes in. Does it leave you doubting and second guessing yourself? Also, you haven't mentioned the Chiron factor, he is rolling around very slowly in Aries. I have Venus in Aries at 12* and so far this year, Chiron slowly creeped up to 12* with lots of pressure, then went rx but is still on 12*, its been almost 3 months on the same degree and my poor Venus. I'm unsure what your degrees are for your Aries planets but it's worth considering as he has potent energy too and quite painful/uncomfortable which may be adding to the current impasse feeling.
I should add, to answer your q., my only recent experience of Saturn Sq Neptune was the collective transit of Saturn in Sag v Neptune in Pisces, 2015-16 approx. It was very challenging and I remember despair so bad I started praying. I have no religion at all, as my folks are atheistic. It pushed me to my knees literally. I did build what I would describe as the foundations of a relationship with faith then (not man-made gods stuff, real faith as in trust in my self/the universe having my back), and it stood me in good stead for the following Saturn in Cap transit, plus onwards into uncertainty. I am sure you feel you are wasting time in the seemingly endless fog but you are likely building/creating a new relationship with yourself that is going to be of great value. You may have to accept that this value is perhaps not perceivable or recognised within our adherence to constructed systems for living... 10th house type manifestations as it were, so it's easy to doubt it and crush it, but it's more in the realm of natural law, the universe's own code/ways. You may be having a door starting to open on other realities of existence.. who might you be in this other space? What are your unknown potentials? However, this also involves grieving the tried and tested persona, who we 'think' we are, so it's an up and down journey with good days and bad so I understand your frustration... Just keep opening to it and then open some more, and some more, and be kind to your self in the struggles to emerge.
I am sure you feel you are wasting time in the seemingly endless fog but you are likely building/creating a new relationship with yourself that is going to be of great value.
sigh thank you sophia, beautiful reminder