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Lila31
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DA84957F-B97D-4571-AA28-BC5FDCD2F772.jpegHave you ever felt like a black sheep, a lone wolf? 

That no matter where you are, where you go, you never fit in with anyone?

This is starting to hit me really hard and today I had a very emotional breakdown based on something that came up and triggered this. 

Can someone help explain what in my chart would explain this? Is this a curse or something?

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JoFrance
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Posted by: @lila31

DA84957F-B97D-4571-AA28-BC5FDCD2F772.jpegHave you ever felt like a black sheep, a lone wolf? 

That no matter where you are, where you go, you never fit in with anyone?

This is starting to hit me really hard and today I had a very emotional breakdown based on something that came up and triggered this. 

Can someone help explain what in my chart would explain this? Is this a curse or something?

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JoFrance
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Yikes, I'm not sure how I conjured up all these old posts.  I just wanted to capture the chart. 

I was going to say that I always lived life as I saw fit. I've felt like a black sheep sometimes, but I did what felt right to me anyway. Its hard to be the different one. I have Uranus in the 10th house in Cancer. I fit in everywhere temporarily, but as far as my family goes, I don't think they really know me and maybe they didn't care to. People say that you can pick your friends but not your family and I think that's my understanding of it all.

 

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@jofrance Uranus in the 10th here too. I have mine in Virgo so there has been for me quite a bit of the criticism  and perfectionism along with the cocktail. Now l have Uranus trine natal Uranus so.... l am not feeling those negative influences about being different. I'm going to let my freak flag fly.

I like what you said about fitting in everywhere temporarily. That made a lot of sense.

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That's classic Chiron conjunct the ascendant. In the myth he was rejected by humanity because he was half-horse but was also rejected by the other centaurs because unlike them he wasn't wild and drunken and lusty- he was civilised. So he spent his life feeling rejected, like he had nowhere to belong. Chiron rules things like disability- so think of it like that- something someone was born with and didn't choose but as a result they are judged and treated differently because of it. That's how you feel- like people see you differently through no fault of your own, like you can't fit in anywhere you go. Your wound is your identity. Having Neptune and Uranus square your Sun and Moon is only going to amplify those feelings. Both those planets are very radical and outside the norm. But very powerful. 

Chiron was wise and a great healer. He was a maverick and through his difference he grew stronger. Often it's the people who are 'different' or somehow 'broken' that have the greatest impact in this world. Remember that. 

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Charpy said
That's classic Chiron conjunct the ascendant. In the myth he was rejected by humanity because he was half-horse but was also rejected by the other centaurs because unlike them he wasn't wild and drunken and lusty- he was civilised. So he spent his life feeling rejected, like he had nowhere to belong. Chiron rules things like disability- so think of it like that- something someone was born with and didn't choose but as a result they are judged and treated differently because of it. That's how you feel- like people see you differently through no fault of your own, like you can't fit in anywhere you go. Your wound is your identity. Having Neptune and Uranus square your Sun and Moon is only going to amplify those feelings. Both those planets are very radical and outside the norm. But very powerful. 

Chiron was wise and a great healer. He was a maverick and through his difference he grew stronger. Often it's the people who are 'different' or somehow 'broken' that have the greatest impact in this world. Remember that.   

Thanks so much, Charpy! ♥️ So, because of that placement, I will always be an outcast? 

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Ive never fit in anywhere. I dont feel bad about it though, because I dont look at it as a negative thing. Its all in your perspective. 

Also, I dont see people that “fit in” having any less problems than me; just different ones. And dont think that some of them don't envy our position sometimes too. Theres a lot of freedom in being an outcast.

Just be careful not to take on too much of the collective shadow onto your own self image. I made that mistake for a long time and suffered for it. Surround yourself with people who appreciate your uniqueness. 

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Lila- Yes I think if you try to fit into the ‘norm’ and force yourself into the boxes that have been set for you by society then people will keep pushing you back and rejecting you- you might find yourself being treated as the scapegoat. It's not easy because unlike Uranus who enjoys being the rebel outcast Chiron doesn't, Chiron longs to be accepted. But when you learn to embrace the fact that your an outsider, that you exist on the edges of society- ironically that's when you will find your place in the world (your power) and where you will find other people like you- a place to belong. From there you'll have tremendous power to heal and inspire others. 

I would definitely recommend looking into Chiron some more (especially Chiron in the 1st house)- there’s lots of great articles online and videos you can watch on Youtube. I think they will help you    smile

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Libra Noir said
Ive never fit in anywhere. I dont feel bad about it though, because I dont look at it as a negative thing. Its all in your perspective. 

Also, I dont see people that “fit in” having any less problems than me; just different ones. And dont think that some of them don't envy our position sometimes too. Theres a lot of freedom in being an outcast.

Just be careful not to take on too much of the collective shadow onto your own self image. I made that mistake for a long time and suffered for it. Surround yourself with people who appreciate your uniqueness.   

Do you also have Chiron conjunct the ascendant? You're probably right about the perspective and point of view although when it effects you at work, it's a different story. 

What do you mean by "not to take on too much of the collective shadow onto your own self image"? How did you make that mistake and suffer from it? 

Thanks! ♥️

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