Are you feeling Mars retro?
For the last few days, I have been TIRED. My legs have been feeling heavy (chronic venous insufficiency--I wear support stockings but only about every other day because they hurt after awhile). Physically I am feeling pushed to my limits--and now I have to find more strength to go hunting for a place to live. I'm drained. Stuff is getting done, but my motivation is gone, baby, gone.
Also struggling with finding the nerve to contact people about finding a place to live. I keep thinking about my furniture, my things that I've accumulated over the years. Did some major purges after Shiny Taurus passed away in 2018, but I still have a real problem letting go of some things. The beautiful light green couches we bought together. The beautiful Panama Jack tables we bought together. The king-sized bed my parents gave me when I had to sell our queen-sized hospital bed. (The king-sized is too big for most places, but I don't have a replacement yet--and good luck selling a used bed in the middle of a pandemic!) The hutch that I used to hold tea sets and other pretty things given to us. I just don't feel like letting go of nearly all my things and living like a college student again, in my 40's. But financially I don't see another choice. There's a middle-income apartment complex nearby, but they only have 2-bedroom apartments right now--for $885 a month. Not counting utilities. That's much better than the average price around here, but still. They also CLOSELY monitor your income. Any overtime is counted, and they have tight minimum/maximum requirements on income. More rules, yaaay.
My Libra brain is swirling with contradictions and Mars Rx in Aries doesn't help. Can't motivate myself to get going.
Right! It’s just getting the energy moving. The law of intertidal: an object in motion tends to stay in motion, an object at rest stays at rest. @tam you are solving all my issues today!!
I had a small idea tonight. It may be dumb, but it's an idea.
My storage unit could be a "permanent" location where I get things out as I need to, wherever I move (locally). It makes no sense to sell my furniture and buy more down the road. Or to purge almost all stuff to make moves easier, only to replace it later.
The last two days... I took short naps. I have not been like this since we moved here so I do feel it. I am not completely drained physically.
It's hitting me differently and I will write about it later. This whole Pluto sitting on my DSC has been some kind of learning experience and has had me spinning.
I can't wait to tell you all. I thank God for astrology and the heads up EARLY so I knew what would be happening and how to navigate it. If I had not known I have no idea how I would have made it this far.
Knowing about Neptune, Uranus hitting my moon and my DSC being slaughtered ahead of time has saved my life as I know it. There could have been an unthinkable disaster.