It’s odd, what will motivate a person. I am trying to wrap up a number of projects behind the scenes. I am pushing myself to plod along. I am forcing myself to stay focused and actually produce a finished product because I feel deeply compelled to change (Uranus) my internal structure (Capricorn) in a way that is significant (Pluto).
I intended to withdraw my energy from this blog and the boards in order to focus on these tasks. It’s sort the Saturn model – finish the work, before you play, but then something weird happened. I found out one of the regulars on the site had been blocked by the communist party in the country where she lives.
It took me a hour or so to process this. I put myself in her shoes and I was deeply disturbed. I had an impulse (Mars conjunct Mercury) to send her some of the posts from the blog. I thought they might cheer her. I then realized the posts probably would cheer her, so I asked if someone might volunteer to send her the posts off the blog. Orcus volunteered to do this for both of us. With this conduit established, I have posted to the blog every day since.
I want this gal to have something unfiltered to read. I give this to the Mars Mercury conjunction in my 9th house, in Libra no less. Let’s just says I value free speech around the world. But this is also an example of Saturn in Scorpio and my 8th house in action. I am (silently) using her energy to fuel my own, so if you have liked the posts on this blog over the last week or so, you can know they were brought to you by these other women, as much as by my independent effort.
This illustrates to me, what I really care about. I care about doing what is good and right to the very best of my ability. I don’t think this is always obvious.
What motivates you?