I was talking to satori about someone’s rotten behavior in her life and told her I understood because I’d acted that way myself. I explained that I thought it was due my 8th house. , I am so steeped in the shadow, I can relate to most anything. I am just not that separated from heinous things, be they thoughts or actions. I understand lower drives because I have them myself and sometimes they get loose!
If you are a rotten person doing rotten things, I think you can stop but this requires you to become conscious which is something most people resist. They’re innocent, the other is not. They’re high-minded and the other is not. If this is your bead and you won’t step off it… well then this is your bead and you won’t step off it. But if you will step off it, anything is possible.
I think having a wide range of experience helps me in consulting. I am never that shocked or horrified because if I’ve not done the horrible thing myself, I have probably thought about it or otherwise brushed up against it. I’m just comfortable in the pit, I don’t know how else to put it.
I am comfortable there but not comfortable staying there. I pine to be good and to be of good service which was something I could never understand until, Liz Greene wrote her excellent text, The Astrological Neptune and the Quest for Redemption.
I don’t think I will ever get of the the dirty grave where I reside but I can get many of you out and that’s saying something.