Jeez, guys. I have new problem. It’s disturbing. I can’t recall ever writing about something like this though I admit it may be an old problem in new clothing. I have a (new) shadow.
I was was going along, enjoying my life quite a bit. A woman entered it, stage left. That’s my Venus in Leo, talking. A new person walked on stage in my life.
It’s no one here. This is real life, I’m talking about.
All of the sudden, everywhere I went, this woman was there. Next thing I knew, I no longer enjoyed ANYTHING I was doing. I just couldn’t find a way to interface with this woman without wanting to withdraw…which is ultimately what I did.
When I withdrew from the first thing, I did so, quietly. I actually don’t think anyone knows I’m gone. This is because it’s a yearly thing…next year, I just won’t be there.
The next time I withdrew, it caused a scene. It’s been six weeks and it’s still causing a scene. This was not deliberate. I just have enough problems and being around this woman is so draining, I realized that I could and should spare myself.
I am currently withdrawing from a third thing. No one is happy, but here again, I was there, she showed up and shortly after, I feel I need to leave just to be able to breathe.
Now Saturn is headed into my 12th house. It’s fair to say, I was going to disappear one way or the other. I have cause to do this. I have the trump card from hell. So what is the deal with this woman? Why would she be part of this picture?
To clarify, I’m suggesting I would very likely have had to resign from all these things anyway, due to personal challenge. Maybe not! I was happy doing this stuff…it fed me. So if I got some kind of boost out of it, I guess it’s possible it would have provided me some kind of lifeline or escape. But that’s definitely not possible with this gal around because I’d go as far to say I dread walking in a room, when I know she’s there. If I am the least little bit upset, I actually feel ill around her.
What is this? I guess it should be obvious, but it’s not.
I did ask someone who has some awareness of the situation. She said she’s just an energy drain. It’s not like I don’t accept this but how does a person drain energy to this degree?
There are times, I swear, I would walk a mile to avoid her. Is it possible to be allergic to someone? She’s my Kryptonite.