“She sure sold me cheap,” I said to a friend when I learned a gal I was acquainted with had betrayed me. “Why do you think that is? Is she stupid?”
I asked if she were stupid because this happens all the time. People betray me frequently. In fact is happens so routinely I don’t even register it other than being mind boggled.
Because I am a loyal and loving friend. I am without a doubt the one that will still be there when everyone else goes home, yet I am discarded all the time.
I think it’s crazy. If I had a friend like me I would keep me for sure but anyway, I was discussing this the other night with a pal and it occurred to us that people who do this don’t do it intentionally. By that, I mean they intend to do what they are doing but they don’t intend for me to know about it. ::smiles::
But invariably I find out and generally very easily. It’s sort of like my son. He’s forever hiding from me, but I always see his butt sticking up, or a fluff of his hair, so he’s not so successful. Which is another reason not to snoop, see? I find out stuff anyway, whether I like it or not.
So this happens all the time. I get sold out, I know about it but the person doing the selling never knows I know because I never confront. Are you kidding? With Mars in Libra?
I only fight with people I love! I am never going to yell at someone I don’t love. Why do that when I have a Venus Neptune escape hatch! I don’t confront, I just erase everything.
I erase the person from my life. I erase myself from theirs and I erase whatever pain might have been inflicted which generally speaking takes me about 30 minutes. I’m sorry, but I am just this good at it after all these years and what happens to the person who sold me?
I have no idea. Venus Neptune!
And I blame (credit) this aspect for this occurring in the first place. Venus Neptune = deception in relationships. The person will be deceiving me and I will be deceiving them in acting as if I don’t know it. Hall of mirrors, right? And then eventually the veil drops (I think).
“Hey. Elsa hasn’t talked to me for a year. I wonder if I got busted?”
And then the denial kicks in… “Nah…”
Do people sell you cheap? Have you ever sold someone you should have held onto? What does that feel like?