Untangling Chaos With Six Planets Retrograde

Post my total hip replacement, the mechanics of my body are utterly altered. This impacts my mind.

As an example, my surgeon put my foot on straight. I have been crippled and compensating for so long, when I look down and see my foot on perfectly, I do a double take. I really can’t believe it. I also can’t remember what it was like, before he used my knee as leverage to dislocate my hip and do the surgery.

It’s obvious to me it will take some time to adjust. This further, and enormously more complicated because the leg of the hip he fixed is now quite long, when it used to be short.

It’s long as compared to the other one, but quite long as compared to what I’m used to. My knees no longer line up.

Now they may line up again but I don’t know when. I was warned of this, by the way. If they’re going to fix your hip, it makes sense they put it where it okay, rather than line if up with the other junky hip. Still, when you wake up with your foot on straight and restored to your natural height, at least on one side, it’s stunning.

I walk with a limp now though I am not sure this will continue. As my hip heals the gap with close some. I can (and will so don’t email me) get a lift of the other leg. I can also have the other hip done, which is my preference.

It’s my preference because I have Libra and I wish to match!  However, I don’t mind the limp as much as you might think. My grandfather broke his leg twice doing that stunt. He limped up mountains for sixty years, so on some level, I’m cool with it.

I’m not cool with the pain, which will resolve one way or the other. I am pretty sure the pain is from my leg being corrected. The muscles I should have been using to walk for the last 3-5 years are a bit out of shape.  Or maybe I need the lift or the healing to complete.  This has to be discerned which is the point of this post. It’s complicated, isn’t it?

I also have scoliosis. Even if I have both hips done, it’s hard to say what the result will be.

What kills me, is that as significant as this may be, it’s little more than background noise in relation to the myriad of other things going on in my life.  I’ve got to constantly let go of so many things; multiple things, every day.

How are you dealing with the tangle in your life?



Untangling Chaos With Six Planets Retrograde — 10 Comments

  1. I’m trying to figure out what exactly my health issue is. Have to make an appointment at the doctor who is on vacation right now.

    I’m determined to get EVERYTHING checked I can, because I’ve been running with this issue for years and I don’t think the doctor’s are taking it seriously, because I’m so young. It’s causing me severe anxiety sometimes, even though I’m not stressed and watching TV. But I can’t tell this the doctor’s or they’ll say it’s psychosomatic.

    At the same time I’ve finished with my studies and are trying to find a job. Retrograde implosion plus Uranus will postpone this I believe.

    ‘ I’ve got to constantly let go of so many things; multiple things, every day.’

    I know how you feel, but we have no other choice

  2. Bless you Elsa. I hope you get better quickly. Quite a shock to your body!

    Ive been waking up at 3:30-4 everynight almost like clockwork.
    Worried about the car repairs I cant afford.
    My roomate is gone until September with no guarantees he’ll come back despite what he says.
    Worried about paying full rent by myself.
    Utilities in arrears big time.
    All about money at this point.
    Been having dreams about my Scorpio mom who passed last October. Still hurts.
    A lot of looking back and pondering.
    Ordering my solar return report shortly.
    Best report ever!

  3. Hi Elsa
    Good luck with your recovery.
    For what it’s worth, I’ve been looking into the biomechanics of the hip, leg and knee areas for my own purposes and there’s quite a bit of interesting info about strengthening opposing muscles in order to help the ones that need to mend as a result of not being used for a long time. For example, a knee is more able to support itself if the flutes are strong. The whole of the hip muscle is part of the huge muscle system running from the top of the hip to the ball of the foot.

  4. I’m dipping into my savings every month for the time being. Expensive apartment that I’m tied to for the next year + tons of debt/medical bills + irregular income. There’s nothing to do at this time but ride it out til the planets go direct starting next month.

    • (((Hug))) NMC. I too am looking forward to the change of energies “up there”, with the hope that the shift to direct will carry and support all of us, each in the individual way(s) we need. In the meantime, hang in there!

  5. Life gets busy even when one is healing from surgery.

    I am watching lots of funny comedy shows to keep me laughing and help me stay positive amidst a very emotionally and physically draining personal experience which might turn out to be a positive one in the end.

  6. oh shoot, was gonna email ya and suggest a lift . . . haha 🙂 I know it’s got to feel weird to be broken and put back together!

    Untangling chaos, I dunno. Can’t even grab the ends of any strand to begin to unravel. I wake up and don’t know where I am most days. It’s like starving beings are nipping at me, no matter how much I do, it’s never enough, nothing is sated. It’s like being in that weird spot at the bottom of a waterfall, half water, half air, cannot swim, cannot breathe.

    And yet I plod on.

    None of us can do more than the best we can do. Sometimes I think it’s God’s grace that keeps me on my feet one more minute.

  7. How do I deal with the tangle in my life?

    Sounds trite and cliche but… ODAT: one day at a time, which I learned in Al-Anon decades ago. Most days, it’s actually OMAT: one moment at a time (I learned about “moments” from a dear now-departed friend on Xanga).

    My life has been like that “forever” so… if I ever cop a break and things actually get better, significantly better, and remain better, for a significant amount of time, I will be the most astounded and grateful person on the planet.

    In the meantime: I try to focus on the “here and now”, “what and who is in front of me”.

    Like the dude who just finished rowing across the Atlantic and set a new record said: “There were only 5 minutes that mattered. The 5 minutes immediately in front of me.”

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