Post my total hip replacement, the mechanics of my body are utterly altered. This impacts my mind.
As an example, my surgeon put my foot on straight. I have been crippled and compensating for so long, when I look down and see my foot on perfectly, I do a double take. I really can’t believe it. I also can’t remember what it was like, before he used my knee as leverage to dislocate my hip and do the surgery.
It’s obvious to me it will take some time to adjust. This further, and enormously more complicated because the leg of the hip he fixed is now quite long, when it used to be short.
It’s long as compared to the other one, but quite long as compared to what I’m used to. My knees no longer line up.
Now they may line up again but I don’t know when. I was warned of this, by the way. If they’re going to fix your hip, it makes sense they put it where it okay, rather than line if up with the other junky hip. Still, when you wake up with your foot on straight and restored to your natural height, at least on one side, it’s stunning.
I walk with a limp now though I am not sure this will continue. As my hip heals the gap with close some. I can (and will so don’t email me) get a lift of the other leg. I can also have the other hip done, which is my preference.
It’s my preference because I have Libra and I wish to match! However, I don’t mind the limp as much as you might think. My grandfather broke his leg twice doing that stunt. He limped up mountains for sixty years, so on some level, I’m cool with it.
I’m not cool with the pain, which will resolve one way or the other. I am pretty sure the pain is from my leg being corrected. The muscles I should have been using to walk for the last 3-5 years are a bit out of shape. Or maybe I need the lift or the healing to complete. This has to be discerned which is the point of this post. It’s complicated, isn’t it?
I also have scoliosis. Even if I have both hips done, it’s hard to say what the result will be.
What kills me, is that as significant as this may be, it’s little more than background noise in relation to the myriad of other things going on in my life. I’ve got to constantly let go of so many things; multiple things, every day.
How are you dealing with the tangle in your life?