Unrelenting Pain and Loss: Gemini Suffers A Pluto Transit

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Dear Elsa,

Could you please tell me what the heck is going on in my stars right now? I’m beginning to feel like I’m cursed.

I lost everything in a divorce several years ago. I moved back to the US and began building my life again from nothing. Just when I was beginning to see the light of day, Katrina hit and took it all away.

Since Katrina, I have been doggedly working at putting my life back together. At the beginning of this month, I had both my sources of income shot down at once. I’m facing eviction and losing it all again. Everything I touch goes sour. I’ve gone from being positive, strong and determined to being withdrawn, depressed and anxious.

The fear of losing everything a third time is overwhelming. I’m suffering panic attacks, nausea, headaches, and am breaking out with psoriasis. I can’t eat, and when I do manage to sleep, I find myself awakened by a bolt of panic. I’m exhausted, shaky and depressed, and worst of all, feeling isolated and unable to reach out.

Is there an end in sight to these cycles of loss?

Losing It

Dear Losing,

There is an end to these cycles of loss, however I won’t lie to you. I am very sorry, but you have a ways to go. You are suffering a Pluto transit to your Sun… and after that, your Moon and I would not expect sun-shiny anything, short term.

Now I want to be clear to others reading, I am generally very positive about all transits and all happenings in a person’s life. But I say “suffering” a Pluto transit to “Losing”, because when you have an outer planet transit like this, the way you experience it is going to be determined to a large degree by how the planet is placed in your natal chart. And Pluto in Losing’s chart is absolutely besieged. And consequently just look at the events.

So Losing, all you can do is try to live well. And by that I mean you can try to align with the forces the best you can. And when you’re talking about Pluto… well, it’s a wipeout. And you’ve experienced this, obviously. And responded in human fashion. You worked doggedly to put it back the way it was. But that’s not what the universe wants. The universe wants you to suffer a void. To make passage through a very dark place.

And being Gemini… well no doubt you are starved for AIR! Last thing you want to do is be in a tunnel, a tunnel, a tunnel, tunnel. However, this is where you are, and further this is where you are going to be for awhile so you must adapt, which is a Gemini skill!

Now it may be bleak, but you are still have a fine Gemini and you can think. You can go zen in your mind. You can use your sense of humor. You’re going to have to! And this reminds me of a story.

A friend of mine was divorcing. He saw he was destined to lose everything. He has lost his 4 year old daughter in a freak accident, and his wife in the aftermath. He lost it all, except a few clothes and his computer. He lost his house of course, and he wound up living in one room of someone else’s house paying $50 a month. He said he was trying to hold on to just this little bit, but you know what happened…

A flood. And he came home to find a 200 year old tree felled and smashed into the house. The tree trunk was right there, lying across his now crushed computer! “I was just hoping to keep that little bit,” he said.

But when the universe disagrees, it disagrees. So finding the tree there… and the water rising, he just abandoned everything. And he had to start from scratch. And you are right here where he was, right now. And you will have to do the same, but here’s what I’m saying.

Take your time trying to re-stock your life. If it were me, I’d be asking God, “Is it okay if I buy this, or is it too soon?” And wait until you know. Wait until you feel it is right, rather than operating in a frantic panic and this will should spare you further loss. One more story.

Several years ago, someone broke in my truck and stole all my cds. Every single one of them. And I was upset. I was sick over this because I have Venus Neptune and am merged with my music. And I wrote a blog back then. Not this one, another one. And a lot people read it. And one of the people reading suggested I put a list of the stolen cd’s up on my blog.

“I am sure that with all of us here, we can replace them for you,” he said. And I thought this was a nice sentiment, however…

There was no way I was going to do that. Because I know for sure, when the universe creates a void like that, it’s for a reason. So I resigned myself to being music-less for awhile, but guess what happened?

The next day I was riding in truck with its busted out window and I started singing. And as soon as I did, I realized you can’t steal a person’s music!! How can you steal someone’s music? The music is in you, along with all the good feelings that go with it. So I decided, fuck it! Those thieves needed that music more than I did. Obviously this was the case, because I don’t go around stealing people’s music, do I?

So now it’s about three years later. Maybe four. I have about ten cds. ::smiles:: That’s it for my whole life and I am happier than ever!

So my point is although these things you think you need are being stripped from you is such a cruel way… you are going to survive and you will undoubtedly find a silver lining and I can give you some idea what that looks like.

At some point your security and your ego will be restored. And at that point will you have tapped into resources deep inside you don’t even know exist right now. And having done that… having made this connection with the power that is at your core, you will become what I call “bulletproof”.

And I know it doesn’t seem that way right now, when you’re in a heap and freaking out, but it is exactly this experience that will empower you. It’s called “been to hell and back”. Right now you’re in hell, but you’ll be back.

Good luck.

 

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Unrelenting Pain and Loss: Gemini Suffers A Pluto Transit — 6 Comments

  1. Just wanted to send my empathy to Losing It. I’m going thru heavy pluto transits myself (have a stellium in virgo opp a stellium in pisces/aries)so it’s gonna be a loooong while b4 i’m out of the s**t, then i’ll have uranus to contend with followed by neptune. It is hell and some days i literally beg for death (hey,neptune in 8th, whaddya expect?!) but other days when the tranits are giving me a respite and i catch myself laughing or feel like dancing or singing i remember how it feels to be light and know that one day i will be out of this tunnel. Many people who have been thru these heavy transits recommend finding a channel to express that raw almost primitive energy (for me and elsa with our neptune overtones it’s music, for others painting, exercise, charity, etc) and as hard as that can be to do initially it does help channel it. My belief that life wont throw you anything you cant handle i think applies to you. You sound like you were a strong person b4 and you still are. You didn’t die. So life must still want you. In time you’ll find out why. And remember, you’re not alone.

  2. Dear Losing,

    I feel for you. I, Gemini like you, I had Pluto opposing my Sun and squaring my Moon (at the same time) last three years and I lost everything, one by one: marriage, home (3 times), money I inherited from my parents, friends, career. Now I live in a foreign country where I know no one, starting from a scratch, hoping the worst is over. Of course, Im not happy and positive. I feel tired, pessimistic, depressed and weak, sometimes I have nightmares and crisis this all will happen again, or even something worse, and I will not be able to go on. B
    ut as Elsa wrote, every cloud has a silver lining and Im starting to see it. Im a different person. I appreciate the simpliest things (like clean water) more than ever before. Im more emphatic. In spite of the shocks I experienced, I feel that new empty space has been created and I believe the universe will fill it.

    Btw in a few years Pluto will oppose my natal Saturn in Cancer (from 8 to the 2nd house) and I have Pluto and Saturn square natally, so Im curious what THIS will bring.

    I wish you all the best, I know you can do it. Spare your energy, try to sleep well and enjoy things you like that do not cost money – long walks, reading, anything which will help you to go through this.
    Blessings,

  3. Dear “Losing It” —

    I went the same route some yrs. ago with a crushing Pluto transit. I was sure I would die from the loss of just about everything, my marriage, my house, my job, my sanity. And the panic attacks wrenched me endlessly….no sleep, a frail body, agony, endless crying I couldn’t control. This is going to sound so trite, but there is an invitation here of monumental proportions, to go deeper and know you… or life ….or all of this crazy world in a way you never imagined before…in a deep, compassionate, “I get it” kind of way. Please, know you are not alone. This WILL pass. Talk to friends til the cows come home, find quiet places that nurture you where you can sit and cry or whatever, pray your guts out, and don’t ever, ever give up. I was there big time and I’m OK. And you will be too……. You are courageous. Love, A Friend

  4. “It’s called “been to hell and back”. Right now you’re in hell, but you’ll be back.”

    Elsa, that’s a keeper! 🙂 Thank you. And your advice was just what I needed to hear today myself.

    Losing it-I’m sorry to hear about what you’ve gone through. That’s tough! I’m sending some love your way, for whatever it’s worth.

    My personal experience of Pluto transits is that they seem to go easiest when you don’t fight the process. Pluto just cleans your house wherever it hits, you know? It’s hard.

    For me, I try to laugh and joke about anything at all as much as possible. I write and journal a lot, which really helps me process and calm down. You can write letters to God/The Universe/Whatever. Basically, whatever you can do to help yourself feel as good as you can manage under the circumstances will help you weather it and give some relief.

    Or at least that’s my thoughts. Whatever you do, good luck!

  5. Hi my birthdate is june 21 1977, melbourne australia 8:45 pm

    i ama novice to this type of stuff

    but i would love to know when pluto will be transiting my houses and such

    i think in oct 2006 – now almost it has gone through my chart am i right?

    just going by my experiences!

    Pluto is horrible, but it strengthens you so much

    suffice to say i think i am strong enough now and i never want to see pluto again! 😛

  6. I’ve had Pluto transiting by conjunction my Saturn for about 2 years. Health problems, financial devastation due to that, no job, career gone, no social support system and sick animals to care for.I live in a large city where there is too many people, cars and heat.
    Now, Pluto is opposing my Moon and at it’s last kick. Last fall during the transit, my aging cat got kidney failure–cared for her till she died in January. Just recently,my other beloved cat died, unexpectedly. I’m devastated. I have 2 left–both are ill and I wouldn’t doubt it if they’re gone soon, too.
    I still have no job or prospects of earning money. I live day by day–always fearing the worst, which has already happened. I wake up and say “What horrible thing will happen today?” I’m shell-shocked and think I’m experiencing PTSD. Pluto has killed all of my hope and joy. I can only hope that somehow life will get better. I don’t know how I can even believe in a God or divine being that would torture me this way. Death would have been easier, but just didn’t happen. Still, I hope things will get better. After all, hope is all I’ve got left.

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