If you have a lot of Cardinal planets in your chart (like I do), I bet you’re up against it today. Cardinal type people often have to do things…they have to take responsibility and get things done.
Sometimes the job is not that bad…it can even be fun. But sometimes a person has to do something that is entirely repugnant them. This is the situation I’m in today.
My problems today are personal, but I’ll give you an example so you know what I mean. Because I know I am not the only one out there who has to do things like this.
There was the time I had to call and have a loved one committed. I stood there as they wrestled her to the ground and put her in a straightjacket. I was eighteen years old. It was horrifying. But it had to be done and I was the one who had to do it.
I had nightmares about that for a number of years. I still wince when I think about it. I know, something like this is mater of fact to people in the field but I’m not in the field! I’m a civilian, you could say. I don’t take it so well. It’s like a scar, branded on my heart, forever.
Today I find myself facing a similar ordeal. Personal horror that is so deep that no one can touch me or help me. I’ve just got to do it.
I remember life, before I’d faced anything of this magnitude. You can never go back. It’s a loss of innocence, I guess.
If you’ve gone through something like this and want to tell us about it, please do.