“The privilege of a lifetime is being who you are.”
— Joseph Campbell
Elsa’s previous blog on Neptune really got me thinking. If you don’t have a strong internal locus of self-value, if you don’t believe you are worth receiving good treatment you will accept poor treatment. Neptune energy can allow one to deceive themselves about what is happening in reality. If your self esteem is too permeable to the opinions and actions of others, if you base your worth on what they think, feel and do rather than on an internal value, what YOU think, feel and do, then you are at their mercy. If you are at their mercy you can be prone to telling yourself stories, spinning the truth (Neptune) to suit what you wish to be true.
If your locus of self worth is other-oriented you will be prone to the whims of others. This is why it is said that one shouldn’t care too much what others think. It’s not that what they think is not valid or useful it’s that it is important for your own integrity that it is not the determining factor in assessing your own value. Every single person is responsible for determining their own value through their own thoughts and deeds. A strong ego, the sun, is the basic building block of the personality. An inner locus of self is primary for all growth. It is the foundation everything else is built upon. No matter what other planetary issue you think you’re having they all relate back to the self. You’ll make only minor gains unless it is built on the solid foundation of a strong, self-directed ego.
The position of your sun, its sign, house placement and aspects, shows the energies that express its inner workings. It shows tendencies toward permeability or solidity, inner or outer. However, your expression of these energies can be high or low. Ultimately it is only you who decides which way it will go, no matter what the outside influence. Everyone has a sun, an ego, a self, and everyone can self determine if they choose. It’s more of a challenge for some, but it’s also well known that often it is those individuals with the most challenge who achieve the greatest success.
How is your self-esteem determined? Where is your sun?