The Moon’s nodes come in pairs, the South Node and the North Node. They form an axis like the angles. They are considered Karmic, for those who believe in karma and past lives. Even if those concepts are not part of your paradigm you can see them as markers of time, your future and your past. The South Node incorporates your past, your history and where you are coming from. As you move toward your future, your North Node, the position of your South Node represents what you leave behind as outmoded and what you claim and take with you into the future. Take the best and leave the rest.
Venus represents our values and our esthetic desires. When Venus turns retrograde the energy is ripe to revisit our attitudes in this regard. In Pluto-ruled Scorpio the theme is depth, taboos, what lies beneath. It’s an opportunity to retrofit ingrained assumptions into something that is more workable for you. Currently Venus is traveling “backward” over my South Node.
Tonight I added my youngest daughter’s name to my Facebook page. All three of my children have their father’s last name. It’s a name I no longer share. When I divorced I changed my name. I didn’t take my maiden name. I told people a variety of reasons but never acknowleged, even to myself, the real reason. The real reason is that I was teased for my maiden name.
My mother remarried more than once. The first time I hyphenated my last name to include my beloved stepfather. When she married again she hyphenated her maiden name with my new stepfather’s name. So we both had hyphenated last names which were completely different. My mother was a teacher so the kids at school knew the situation and teased me mercilessly, calling me all four of our hyphenated names. It was a joke and I acted like it was funny. But really it felt like they were calling my mother a whore, and me as well.
So tonight I saw my kids’ names, all the same, all one name, and was so glad they have that simplicity. Until today I was sad that I didn’t share that. Today I realized that my new name, the name I picked for myself (my mother’s maiden name that we now share), is truly mine. It carries the good from my past into my future.
So with this Venus retro in Scorpio I realized two deep truths about my values and desires. I am finally comfortable in my skin, my name, my family (this is near my fourth house cusp). And I will never again politely laugh while someone insults me and my people. Perhaps most importantly, I am forever done eating shit pie.
How is this Venus Retrograde affecting you? Can you see the astrology behind it?