I promised an update to the Grand Crosses and Other Frights series and this is it. I was in a relationship with a grand cross in the composite, followed by a relationship with a grand trine in the composite. The 2nd relationship was far more pleasant and this was all I could note at the time.
This brings me to a point I have been meaning to make – Nothing substitutes for experience. You can read until you are blue and it is just not the same as living. Point is I was writing from my experience at the time and now I have more experience.
My impressions of how these things play have not changed but my understanding has deepened. I still think that strong, closed configurations in the composite chart indicate relationship that are very hard to escape but seeing as I am now in a 3rd relationship with a strong composite, it’s occurred to me that someone like me has no choice but to look for a “trap” otherwise I would be nowhere, unable to sustain or stay in a relationship.
I am just that flaky and fleeting and escapist and disappearing so if you think about that it makes sense I would have to find a form or a frame. I really struggle to stay in my body so we best put me in some kind of container, this is a benefit.
In contrast people who have grand crosses (or the like) in their natal chart probably have no such need. I don’t know this but this is my guess.
Now I did wind up leaving the relationship with the composite grand trine and entering one with a composite grand cross (with the soldier) which just goes to show you, never say never.
I didn’t slip on a banana peel and fall unwittingly into another difficult relationship. I was completely conscious of my decision. In fact I discussed it at length and I sounded just like this:
“If I go with him, I will suffer. I will never get out, it will always be hard… and that will be that. I will be stuck to, do you realize that? I am telling you I will not be able to get out…”
Now that may sound harsh but fact is I did not get into this relationship with the soldier lightly. I was going to have to drive around and see him in a truck every two weeks for a year, remember? Who signs on for something like that lightly, hmm. Better yet, who signs on for that at all?
Never mind the mile-high stack of other problems we had, I made the decision and I’ve not regretted for a minute. It has been very hard. You have no idea what we’ve been through in the last 3 years, both together and separately but here we we are in our difficult (deeply satisfying) relationship that we can’t get out of I can offer this other insight.
You know how I said with the other grand cross chart, people could not deal with both of us at the same time? Well the soldier and I have the same problem. People either deal with me or they deal with him but they do not deal with “us”… except for some notable exceptions and I have cracked the code on this.
His son and my son both deal with us as a unit and I mean they get all the way in there. It’s very damned brave, I’ll tell you but they do get in there. For example both of them have stepped in at different times to mediate one of our epic battles which would be insane if it didn’t work and I’ll tell you how and why I think it works.
What happens is they both have planets (heavy duty) conjunct one of the points in our Grand Cross. That is, they can interact with our fortress because they can enter it and be part of it.
I’d go on to say that people who read this blog who can also (comfortably) deal with the union probably also have planets conjunct the points of our composite grand cross.
Pretty cool, huh?